Cocobutter Posted June 22, 2007 Share Posted June 22, 2007 About a month ago it hit me that i was about to turn 20. It got even worse when i looked back on the years and realized i've done nothing good for myself, only worried about others, now i realize that this was my biggest mistake. Like many people, it took my to hit my rock bottom in order to realize that the only person that could make me happy was me, and the people who were responsible for the emotional and physical abuse i endured time after time in my childhood and adolesense were not going to be punished or sought out for their actions unless i was looked at as respectable. Right now, im not. Even though i'm not on drugs and have never been pregnant, i failed out of University, one that i thought i had no choice to go to because i wanted to escape yet another domain of emotional abuse. It didnt work out and being that my family is so judgemental, i shouldve waited another year, but the fear of staying back a year pushed me to convince myself that it was the best choice to go. It was hard realizing that i couldve been more honest with myself and others so i wouldnt be in this spot right now, but, now i am, and it's going to take me to accept that fact and get my life together so by the time im 30, i can actually say, I'm happy. So in August i start what i call my final chance. I have to make it big too. Because i'm a person that believes in justice for all. I hate seeing bad people smile, and i hate it even more when the vitcims suffer. Im no ones victim, and anyone who has ever felt the way i feel should do the same thing i am. I've realized when people see a flaw about you, it makes them feel better/stronger. But the way to make them scared is to bounce back from your rock bottom, and stare at the people who rooted for you to fail in the face and say "you're pathetic". I cant wait for that day..... Link to post Share on other sites
knaveman Posted June 22, 2007 Share Posted June 22, 2007 You don't have to wait until you're 30 to say "I'm Happy" you can start that right now. You seem to have the right idea, you ARE the only one who can make you happy. Don't do it to prove anything to anyone because it will never work. Just make yourself happy and happy people will find you. Link to post Share on other sites
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