Melisande Posted June 29, 2007 Share Posted June 29, 2007 It's nothing terribly bad, only a bit disturbing. When I was 8/9, I had a friend and I went with her to her grandad's place a couple of time. Once we found pornography in a drawer and looked at it for a while (i don't know where he was. i doubt we would have been alone in there at our age, but I don't remember him being a round at that time). The second time we where playing a game where he had to catch us or something. My friend was hiding in the bathroom and I was in his bedroom, bouncing on the bed. At that point he tried to take my tights off (it was winter and I was wearing woollen tights). I got very very scared (thank god!!), I pulled my tights back up and I ran away to where my friend was and never left her side. Her mum soon came to pick us up (to go to the fair or something) and I never went back there again. I had forgotten about that. I never told anyone and I never thought about it. I'm not sure how I feel about it now. I'm so glad I ran away from that man and I wonder why I buried it for so long. I know it was a very very minor incident, but it makes me feel really weird thinking about it now, and I can't really decipher my emotions. I feel like it never really affected me that much, but then why did I bury it, and why am I feeling so weird now? I'm very confused and I wish I had never remembered... Link to post Share on other sites
JulieJ Posted June 29, 2007 Share Posted June 29, 2007 I can understand how this is a difficult memory to cope with. Try talking about it to someone you trust, because that can help you sort through your feelings. Also, try to focus on the positive, which is that you weren't physically harmed, thank goodness, in this situation. Link to post Share on other sites
amaysngrace Posted June 29, 2007 Share Posted June 29, 2007 There is shame felt by children when adults act inappropriately. No matter the act children misconstrue things into being their fault. I think this is why you're weirded out by it all. It's from the shame you felt at the time. Link to post Share on other sites
Windwalker Posted July 10, 2007 Share Posted July 10, 2007 I had the beginning of a molestation happen to me, too. It was mostly confusing. Nothing really happened, I didn't know what to do, so I didn't tell anyone. Still confused about it at age 45. But I was never alone with that guy again! It sounds like you protected yourself well. You said No! and ran out. It may be that this has surfaced to get you to process some emotion? It must have been scary. Are you going through something scary/boundary-violating right now in your life that you may need to do the same thing with? Link to post Share on other sites
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