what is the deal? read its kinda long

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So here it goes......i started dating this girl five years ago....We met and got together fast. We moved into together while she was finishing college. She graduated and her and i moved to a new city. We were happy for about a year and i started to feel insecure about the relationship based on an ex wife and the way she had treated me. My attitude for the longest time was that girls cheat and leave (via the ex wife actions). So after a year or so we broke up for three months. While we were getting back together she was talking to another dude...for four months after... calling him 5 times a day. we got back together in march and in august i confronted her about the guy and she told me she needed a friend and she was lonely. i forgave her but i couldn't get over the insecurity brought on by my ex. we were together until a month ago....but there have been problems since....dec.....31 of last year she sent me this email saying that she needed to go figure out some stuff and it was a good thing...then she started staying late at work and disappearing for hours...working.....60 days ago she said she was unhappy....i started to look for a better job and to move out....a month ago...we talked and she said she was unhappy....i told her that she was fueling my insecurities with her actions.....she said she felt indebted to me for a place to live.....but she also told me that it didn't matter(the money i make) cause she made enough for us.....i started counseling and true change is happening in my life.....two weeks later....i saw her to by the car i am driving and we had a nice talk and it felt good...but she said she was going to counseling also and she wasn't seeing anyone.....she was going to counseling...(this is a girl who has told me she cant recognize her own feelings and she has told me before that she loved me cause she "fell back into the pattern of it)she said she didn't wanna be negative about this but thats how she felt...she told me that the dog missed me after i told her i missed our dog...i asked her how the meeting was going she said good...she thought it was gonna be tense and i seemed a lot calmer...i told her i was closer to the guy she met five years ago then two months ago.....she was still at that point paying for my cell phone...so on friday i called her almost a month later to see if shed meet me for lunch...she said it was too early and that she is only been to two counseling sessions...she complained about the phone i told her i was taking care of it on the 15...then the next day she called to give me her new cell phone number....i told her that i wanted to take her out for her birthday...which was yesterday...she said no....but i called to give u my new number.....i asked if i could call her on her birthday...she said yes and gave me a time...told her i missed her and she said nothing...so i decided that Imo not chasing or calling her anymore.....called on her birthday...we talked and i told her i was disappointed she wouldn't let me take her out...she said we will go to lunch soon....i told her i wasn't gonna call that the ball was in her court now.....she said she call.....my question is for everyone (females)...we were happy for a while...with the true change i am going through in counseling...do i have a snow balls chance in ....i have decided that i am moving forward either way.....i realize now that i lost myself in the relationship.... with the help of the concealing will never happen again.....i wasn't insecure or anything when i met this girl.....

 

what does everyone think?