A corner turned

[mammax3]

I know. I shouldn't have looked. It helps nothing, solves nothing and only makes me stew and think. I've got enough going on in my life without worrying about what sort of lies he's telling, since I'm sure he *must* be telling some whoppers out there. Especially to himself.

 

I just have to keep reminding myself of the things you say. Most of the time I don't stop to think of what he's doing, with who and what he's saying. I really should have insisted to not look at his page, but I was curious. If anything, it's helped me sharpen my focus on the D, and what I need to do to ensure my kids are well looked after (financially speaking). Like I just told Mel, I need to RUN!

 

When the dust has settled, I'm coming to call on you LJ and Gunny for the subversion tactics to run them up the flagpole. My daddy used to tell me the br'er rabbit story as a bedtime story when I was young. But we never talked about the moral of the story. I didn't get it until now Yikes! I swear I'm quicker on the pick up on most other things! It was just a story I used to hear!!

 

The sand in my suit is that he was able to just tuck us aside and move on to a brand new life. It shouldn't bother me, since I don't want him around us anymore (really and truly 100% sure) and in many ways I'm close to feeling thankful that he left when he did (He did it in a sh*tty, yellow way, but still...) Like Mel, I'd love to post up on my local dating service, but I'm not there, emotionally or mentally. It's like I don't want to waste what I've got in the bank, emotionally speaking, on some clown rather than give it to my kids, or keep it for me. And I'm okay being single. I've been with the same man since I was a teenager, and I'm not ready to jump into another relationship with someone else. Like you said, Gunny, it'll have to find me, since I'm not looking for it. And there's so many things I'd like to DO! Like school, and eventually work. There's some volunteering I'd like to do in my community too... There's no room right now for someone else!

 

There's freedom in that.

[Melovator]

t My daddy used to tell me the br'er rabbit story as a bedtime story when I was young. But we never talked about the moral of the story. I didn't get it until now Yikes! I swear I'm quicker on the pick up on most other things! It was just a story I used to hear!!

 

My Nanna always told it to me, only she would always get me to tell her what the moral was! I'd forgotten all about tricky Brer Rabbit and Brer Fox!

 

Like Mel, I'd love to post up on my local dating service, but I'm not there, emotionally or mentally. It's like I don't want to waste what I've got in the bank, emotionally speaking, on some clown rather than give it to my kids, or keep it for me. And I'm okay being single. I've been with the same man since I was a teenager, and I'm not ready to jump into another relationship with someone else. Like you said, Gunny, it'll have to find me, since I'm not looking for it. And there's so many things I'd like to DO! Like school, and eventually work. There's some volunteering I'd like to do in my community too... There's no room right now for someone else!

 

There's freedom in that.

 

You're right about the emotional bank- It's kind of like going to a restaurant, not really being hungry, seeing nothing that makes you want to eat and then not having the money to pay if you did decide to order! Don't know why I let myself be talked into it...

 

And the not having room for someone is freeing, all your time is your own to do with as you want, to make what you want of yourself without reference to anyone or having to arrange things to suit other people (well accept your little people of course!).

 

You go mamma! Get that degree, get a fabulous job, have a fabulous life with three kids who know you're there for them and laugh at the ex! The best revenge is a life lived well!