I kissed him-oh God.

[dyingtwilight]

I broke up with my ex boyfriend five months ago while he was on deployment. (I know I know how evil). Well I convinced him to stop by on his way back home from base and say hi to me but he could only stay for ten minutes. I made sandwiches ;-). So I kept saying "five more minutes" and we hugged and then I kissed him. His reaction was basically to ignore it, although he did kiss me back. I'm really scared now because the truth is I do want to get back together with him but I'm not sure he wants to and I'm not sure I should have been so forward. Did I destroy any possibility of being his friend, let alone getting back together? I don't think you guys understand just how desprete I've become. I've lost ten pounds, and I think about him just as much as I have since I met him. I'm always the one calling him/texting/emailing...but he always replies and he always provides excuses for why he can't talk/msg/extra. There legitimate excuses. So ****ing confused!

[dyingtwilight]

Any advice guys?

[pantheralum93]

Sounds like your initiating most of the contact between the two of you. You have put yourself out there by asking him over when he returned and he must obviously have feelings for you or he wouldn't have come by. That would be my guess. But I would probably pull back a little bit and let him initiate contact. If he has feelings for you I'm sure he will contact you. Otherwise you run the risk of getting hurt in my opinion.

[dyingtwilight]

Thankyou so much for your advice. I honestly am so confused right now...I posted again...just because...but now he tells me he likes me also but dosen't want the pressures of a relationship. Friends with benefits. Either way thanks though.