i'm going INSANE. how does he feel?!

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hey guys..

 

i've known this guy, we'll call him Mike, for 3 or 4 years. we were good friends, had great chemistry, guess a little piece of me was attracted to him and we were sort of flirtatious but he always had a girlfriend so my mind never really ventured there. the first girl was a control freak who rarely let him see me during the 2 years they were together because she thought he liked me (whether he did or not, who knows). then they broke up and he started dating someone else for about 4 months during which i saw him once, casually..

 

recently i slept over at his house because i'm bffls with his sister and we wanted to catch up over college break. i went there thinking he was still attached so that wasn't even remotely on my mind, but when i got there his sister told me that he and girl #2 had broken up in may.. a few hours later i saw the newly single Mike and he started coming on very strong all day. after his sister feel asleep we went to walk around and talk, then came back and went into his backyard where he proceeded to try to make out with me for about four hours. i told him it was strange because i had never seen him that way, and he was like "it's okay, i love you and i'm not going to get a girlfriend and we can be psuedolovers until you make up your mind." we went to sleep and didn't really talk about it the next day. basically i assumed that we'd discuss it next time i saw him, but he may have taken it as rejection..

 

i thought about it for a while and realized i could/do love him, it just never really manifested until he was single because he was off-limits previously. i don't know if i'm *in love*, but i definitely like him enough to date him. we didn't talk in between the sleepover and this, and as i was getting ready to see him and tell him... well, i heard from his sister that he'd starting dating some girl who's much younger than both of us. i was pretty pissed; i saw him once afterwards in a group setting and we hugged but it was artificial and we didn't get to talk about anything because there were people there, he seemed sort of frazzled to see me and barely made eye contact (despite hovering around me a lot..). the thing is, apparently they've broken up now (3-week relationship =P) and i haven't spoken to him since. he called me once after but i didn't have my phone, and he didn't pick up when i called back, and that was that.

 

i know what you're probably thinking is "talk to him!" but i have no idea what he's feeling so if i spoke to him directly it could cause horrible awkwardness or put a damper on our friendship. i'll talk to him when i see him in person in a group, which will be soon, but in the meantime i'm going nuts. i have no idea how he's feeling. it's a totally atypical situation and what does he think?! i doubt he was trying to "get some" because we've been friends for years and he knows i don't do that. he went out with that girl, hasn't contacted me since they broke up, and it's hard to tell if it's because he's shy and assumed i don't like him based on what i did or if he just isn't interested. does he like me? does he even care? what would you say based on what he did?

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