why is lost love so painful

[broken08]

Hey, i just read your blog and have seen many similarities with what i am also going through. For me, it has only been about a month, and this is the second time he has done this to me. he broke up with me on valentines day last year, and ended up coming back 2 months later in which i started hanging out with him again, but not exclusively and i would not commit. This was because of how bad he hurt me and the fact that he did not work to get it back. A year later, we were pretty much together but without a title because i was still being stubborn about him hurting me. I dated another guy because he treated me well. My ex knew this and hates me for it. I soon got bored with this guy....2 weeks. and wanted my ex back even if it was just friends with benefits. He was fine and we hung out and talked again like nothing happened. Then we started fighting because he couldn't even call me once a week to talk to me ( i realise now he was still acting kind of weird and i probably should have seen this coming). He then got so mad with me nagging him he said he can't do this anymore and that he's done. So a week or so later we went to a camping trip/party for a friends graduation. Of course, as usual he ended up with me, in my tent for the night. The next morning of course he was acting strange again. So i talked to him about it and he said he should have been more careful and not done that. so then at home i asked him about it again and he said it feels so right to be with me, and that he wants to be with me but that he just can't. He's so confused and doesn't know what to do but that we just can't be together again. And i told him well i'm not giving you another chance so you better be sure. He though about it and said he's done "don't worry i won't come back this time". Then awhile later he was like well what would you do if i did come back. it's been a month now, he IMs me once in while, He has apologized for things and when i ask if he's trying to fix things he says "don't overanalyze things". He has also put up strange away messasges that seem to deal with me but at the same time i had to refrain from asking him because i didn't want to seem desperate.

 

However, he has always played mind games and has been extremely stubborn. he would force himself to stay away from me to prove a point even if it was killing him. He said to me once about the other guy i was dating that "i can't get away with it that easily" but that was only mentioned once and not sure if this break up is a way to punish me or he's just completely done with me.

 

Either way, since the day i met him i felt different with him. I'm young, but i've never felt this way about anyone and know that i feel completely different with him. We've been together on and off for 3 years, I can see myself marrying him despite all the bad things we've gone through. I do love him, but he's always said "i don't know what love is" so i don't know about him. I don't know, it's hard to explain why but i feel like theres something there and that we should be together. the last time we broke up i felt the same way, and he ended up coming back. And i feel the same way again. i feel like he does care about me a lot, he's just never competely opened up and i feel like it isn't because of me, but because of his family life.

 

at the same time, i hate how he treats me, hes very immature and i know someday he might realise but right now he just wants to enjoy his college days with his guy friends. Which most of the time puts me on the back burner. I know i should have been more understanding but i now realise i was annoying and naggy and wish i could go back and change that. I am dreading this up coming year which starts in less then a month. I don't know how to live at college without him and see him everyday and know i can't be with him. I feel like he's going to come back but i also feel i need to work so hard to get over him so i won't be treated like this. However i know if he comes back i would take him back.

 

I need to know how to change this feeling and convince myself that it's over, because i don't want to keep waiting around but i just can't. Also, your dating again, do you feel any better? is the time without her making you start to forget? I'm afraid that i will never feel the way i feel with him with anyone else and that really scares me.

[sharp2007]

Hey, i just read your blog and have seen many similarities with what i am also going through. For me, it has only been about a month, and this is the second time he has done this to me. he broke up with me on valentines day last year, and ended up coming back 2 months later in which i started hanging out with him again, but not exclusively and i would not commit. This was because of how bad he hurt me and the fact that he did not work to get it back. A year later, we were pretty much together but without a title because i was still being stubborn about him hurting me. I dated another guy because he treated me well. My ex knew this and hates me for it. I soon got bored with this guy....2 weeks. and wanted my ex back even if it was just friends with benefits. He was fine and we hung out and talked again like nothing happened. Then we started fighting because he couldn't even call me once a week to talk to me ( i realise now he was still acting kind of weird and i probably should have seen this coming). He then got so mad with me nagging him he said he can't do this anymore and that he's done. So a week or so later we went to a camping trip/party for a friends graduation. Of course, as usual he ended up with me, in my tent for the night. The next morning of course he was acting strange again. So i talked to him about it and he said he should have been more careful and not done that. so then at home i asked him about it again and he said it feels so right to be with me, and that he wants to be with me but that he just can't. He's so confused and doesn't know what to do but that we just can't be together again. And i told him well i'm not giving you another chance so you better be sure. He though about it and said he's done "don't worry i won't come back this time". Then awhile later he was like well what would you do if i did come back. it's been a month now, he IMs me once in while, He has apologized for things and when i ask if he's trying to fix things he says "don't overanalyze things". He has also put up strange away messasges that seem to deal with me but at the same time i had to refrain from asking him because i didn't want to seem desperate.

 

However, he has always played mind games and has been extremely stubborn. he would force himself to stay away from me to prove a point even if it was killing him. He said to me once about the other guy i was dating that "i can't get away with it that easily" but that was only mentioned once and not sure if this break up is a way to punish me or he's just completely done with me.

 

Either way, since the day i met him i felt different with him. I'm young, but i've never felt this way about anyone and know that i feel completely different with him. We've been together on and off for 3 years, I can see myself marrying him despite all the bad things we've gone through. I do love him, but he's always said "i don't know what love is" so i don't know about him. I don't know, it's hard to explain why but i feel like theres something there and that we should be together. the last time we broke up i felt the same way, and he ended up coming back. And i feel the same way again. i feel like he does care about me a lot, he's just never competely opened up and i feel like it isn't because of me, but because of his family life.

 

at the same time, i hate how he treats me, hes very immature and i know someday he might realise but right now he just wants to enjoy his college days with his guy friends. Which most of the time puts me on the back burner. I know i should have been more understanding but i now realise i was annoying and naggy and wish i could go back and change that. I am dreading this up coming year which starts in less then a month. I don't know how to live at college without him and see him everyday and know i can't be with him. I feel like he's going to come back but i also feel i need to work so hard to get over him so i won't be treated like this. However i know if he comes back i would take him back.

 

I need to know how to change this feeling and convince myself that it's over, because i don't want to keep waiting around but i just can't. Also, your dating again, do you feel any better? is the time without her making you start to forget? I'm afraid that i will never feel the way i feel with him with anyone else and that really scares me.

Hi, Thankyou for your reading my blog, I hope it has helped your in some way..he seems to me to be a confused young man which is then reflected onto your own emotions..I truely feel you need sometime away from him so you can actually begin to find yourself once more and become a stronger person...to answer your question, I have begun to date again and I do feel so much better and yes for the first time the other evening my ex was not in my thoughts, due to the lovely woman I was seeing..you will find someone else and that person will be loyal, loving and most of all honest with you..believe me when I say that...you take care..

[funkybassplayer]

Hi, Thankyou for your reading my blog, I hope it has helped your in some way..he seems to me to be a confused young man which is then reflected onto your own emotions..I truely feel you need sometime away from him so you can actually begin to find yourself once more and become a stronger person...to answer your question, I have begun to date again and I do feel so much better and yes for the first time the other evening my ex was not in my thoughts, due to the lovely woman I was seeing..you will find someone else and that person will be loyal, loving and most of all honest with you..believe me when I say that...you take care..

 

 

 

Thats really great news, it sounds like things are coming togeter for you. you sound like you deserve it too.

[Chinook]

Hi, Thankyou for your reading my blog, I hope it has helped your in some way..he seems to me to be a confused young man which is then reflected onto your own emotions..I truely feel you need sometime away from him so you can actually begin to find yourself once more and become a stronger person...to answer your question, I have begun to date again and I do feel so much better and yes for the first time the other evening my ex was not in my thoughts, due to the lovely woman I was seeing..you will find someone else and that person will be loyal, loving and most of all honest with you..believe me when I say that...you take care..

That is really good news Simon You sound like you're much better than you were. I'm very pleased.

[sharp2007]

That is really good news Simon You sound like you're much better than you were. I'm very pleased.

Hi, Thanks, I am feeling better within myself, although it is early days yet..but hopefully I'll continue and only get stronger..I'm keeping up with the blog and this I find also helps each day..take care..simon....hope you well?..

[sharp2007]

Thats really great news, it sounds like things are coming togeter for you. you sound like you deserve it too.

Hi there, I'm pleased your beginning to pull through and are coming to terms with your loss..remember this episode of our lifes will eventually make us stronger people who in turn hopefully when we do start another relationship will make it better than we have ever experienced before, not only for us but for your new partner...keep looking forward my friend..you never know whats around the next corner...all the best....

[sharp2007]

why is lost love so painful..well I have recently completed a blog about my relationship with a woman whom I loved with all my heart and would have married and had a child with.

I had to write the blog as it is my way of coping with the utter loss I feel in not being able to be with her anymore.

 

Please find time to read it at .. www.whyislostlovesopainful.blogspot.com

 

I have unfortunately learn't alot from my experiences with her, lessons I did not want to learn.. so if anyone feels they need some advice or just a listening ear, I hope I can help in someway..

 

Thanks..

I've added another thread (shes pregnant again with his after aborting mine)with regard to this one and my blog..thanks for taking the time to read them all...

[sharp2007]

I've added another thread (shes pregnant again with his after aborting mine)with regard to this one and my blog..thanks for taking the time to read them all...

I just wish to say that some of the things I wrote yesterday was not me, on my other thread..I had been drinking and looking through the conversations I must come over as an immature teenager.. I'm not like that and just wish to say to anyone who reads those postings to ignore them..I have asked for them to be deleted..including that named thread..but so far this hasn't been actioned..so I am wrting this to you all instead..

last night I took a long hard look at myself and today is the start to the future...

[sharp2007]

why is lost love so painful..well I have recently completed a blog about my relationship with a woman whom I loved with all my heart and would have married and had a child with.

I had to write the blog as it is my way of coping with the utter loss I feel in not being able to be with her anymore.

 

Please find time to read it at .. www.whyislostlovesopainful.blogspot.com

 

I have unfortunately learn't alot from my experiences with her, lessons I did not want to learn.. so if anyone feels they need some advice or just a listening ear, I hope I can help in someway..

 

Thanks..

I just want to say to everybody who reads these threads, that life does go on, I know it may not seem like that right now, but life does get better, believe me when I say this ok, I've been there and I can tell you all its not nice, but one day you will awake and that day ahead will be the start of a new you...........

[Chinook]

hey Simon, sorry I've not been around in a while. I've been busy. Glad to see you're more positive despite the recent set-back earlier this month. You're right it does get easier.... bit by bit.

[sharp2007]

hey Simon, sorry I've not been around in a while. I've been busy. Glad to see you're more positive despite the recent set-back earlier this month. You're right it does get easier.... bit by bit.

hi there..thanks for the words..yeah I'm getting there..slowly, although its be difficult recently..I've explained how I feel within the blog..hope your ok...simon..

[sharp2007]

why is lost love so painful..well I have recently completed a blog about my relationship with a woman whom I loved with all my heart and would have married and had a child with.

I had to write the blog as it is my way of coping with the utter loss I feel in not being able to be with her anymore.

 

Please find time to read it at .. www.whyislostlovesopainful.blogspot.com

 

I have unfortunately learn't alot from my experiences with her, lessons I did not want to learn.. so if anyone feels they need some advice or just a listening ear, I hope I can help in someway..

 

Thanks..

everyone please listen to this song..this is how I felt about her..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S2dFzu1nF84&mode=user&search=

[sharp2007]

everyone please listen to this song..this is how I felt about her..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=S2dFzu1nF84&mode=user&search=

everyone please listen to this song..this is how I felt about her and everyone else who has messed me about in my life.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=u55fpsbzAfk

[sharp2007]

why is lost love so painful..well I have recently completed a blog about my relationship with a woman whom I loved with all my heart and would have married and had a child with.

I had to write the blog as it is my way of coping with the utter loss I feel in not being able to be with her anymore.

 

Please find time to read it at .. www.whyislostlovesopainful.blogspot.com

 

I have unfortunately learn't alot from my experiences with her, lessons I did not want to learn.. so if anyone feels they need some advice or just a listening ear, I hope I can help in someway..

 

Thanks..

when i fall in love

its only you

when I cry you are my shoulder

dont leave my thoughts

come back into my life

be my courage

my one only love

forever will be

I truely adore you..

[sharp2007]

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[Lyssa]

Hey there sharp2007! I read your blog and I cried! I hope everything is going well with you. I was just wondering if I could link your blog to mine? If that was okay with you!

[sharp2007]

Hey there sharp2007! I read your blog and I cried! I hope everything is going well with you. I was just wondering if I could link your blog to mine? If that was okay with you!

hi lyssa..thankyou for reading my blog..and I know its along drawn out one!:-) umm I'm not sure, never been asked this before, can you let me know your blog address and then I can read yours first, I can't see it being a problem though and thanks for asking..I'm a little shocked..I've just read your 3 threads and I hope your finding the answers your looking for..take care..simon..

[Lyssa]

I enjoyed reading it. Do you have PM available to you? I'll PM you my URL. I have found my answer, thanks! Everything is actually going well right now. Just taking it one day at a time...

[sharp2007]

I enjoyed reading it. Do you have PM available to you? I'll PM you my URL. I have found my answer, thanks! Everything is actually going well right now. Just taking it one day at a time...

my windows live address is [email protected]...

[Lyssa]

Okay! I have emailed you my URL!

[sharp2007]

Okay! I have emailed you my URL!

ok..I've read some of your blog..left a message on your msn..take care..

[sharp2007]

why is lost love so painful..well I have recently completed a blog about my relationship with a woman whom I loved with all my heart and would have married and had a child with.

I had to write the blog as it is my way of coping with the utter loss I feel in not being able to be with her anymore.

 

Please find time to read it at .. www.whyislostlovesopainful.blogspot.com

 

I have unfortunately learn't alot from my experiences with her, lessons I did not want to learn.. so if anyone feels they need some advice or just a listening ear, I hope I can help in someway..

 

Thanks..

today is a bad day for me...a day which I have been dreading...can anyone give me some advice...or has anyone been through what I'm going through at present...if so I would be grateful for any help. Thanks..

[sharp2007]

why is lost love so painful..well I have recently completed a blog about my relationship with a woman whom I loved with all my heart and would have married and had a child with.

I had to write the blog as it is my way of coping with the utter loss I feel in not being able to be with her anymore.

 

Please find time to read it at .. www.whyislostlovesopainful.blogspot.com

 

I have unfortunately learn't alot from my experiences with her, lessons I did not want to learn.. so if anyone feels they need some advice or just a listening ear, I hope I can help in someway..

 

Thanks..

I'm sorry, but I need to a say I'm feeling right now..I wrote this on my blog today..I'm feeling so desperate and lost...what do I do?..someone please tell me....................

[FONT=trebuchet ms]I’ve chosen a video today by 30 seconds to Mars called ‘a beautiful lie’ because that’s so fitting to how she made me feel..especially right now, as my mind can see more clearly..its not been blinded by my love for her anymore..I never thought I would say that, but its how I'm feeling today and have been for some time..the lyrics of this song are so ‘spot on’ to what I think on a daily basis..I’m moving on and you know world I’ll eventually get there..I owe that to myself, my daughter and most importantly to my baby that was murdered by her..strong words, but its so true..and I will not apologise for that..[/FONT]