Deangelo Posted August 8, 2007 Share Posted August 8, 2007 My ex gf cheated on me twice already, the last was the biggest bang on the so called relationship. the thing is, that was the worst emotional wreck ive been thru...sleepless nights, crying...the drama. i even came to a point of begging, those were the times that i even wanted to kill myself..and calling her, asking her for the closure she didint give me. she just dumped me. and left my heart needless to say wrecked.. i did everything to regain myself, one day i decided not to call her anymore and beg which is so pathetic and i realized that its time to move on.. i was ok then, i got a good job, new people, everything was well and nice..until 3 weeks after. she called me asking if im ok...i said "yeah im ok.." acting as if i was really ok...well yeah i WAS not until she called. then she said that she saw the picture of a friend of mine in friendster and then suddenly came to an arguement...then evryday she was like texting me then and asking if i can come back...i said no....then there is this one private moment we talked and something happened...eventually days went pass and then a friend of ours told me something which really shocked me...anyways the dilemma here is, YES I STILL LOVE HER. Iwant to let go but im afraid of losing her at the same time. She was my life and i WAS ok then and then here she is obscuringmy life with her sweetness and doing all that stuff that made me love her. SO STUPID. and then she keeps on saying sorry, one time she even cried like hell saying she was so stupid and that she regret all of the things she did...she even put our pics on her PSP. kinda made her a bit nostalgic about us...and i was like is this for real? or she's just acting?? i dunno wat to believe anymore. She evn said she's saetting aside time alone thinking an fixing herslef, that i dunno if she's saying the truth or are they still together? i dunno...she said the status is like we both no we are more than friends but no commitment...she constantly texting me and saying how i am, to take care...with kisses and stuff...im really confused...watya think> Link to post Share on other sites
SolidSolutions Posted August 8, 2007 Share Posted August 8, 2007 Hi Deangelo, Right now, I'm finding myself after a third/fourth chance...and the more the time passes, the more I fell it is useless (I've been through 4 months of pathetic begging and crying and whatever). Anyway, reasons are different and she only cheated me this last time… I broke up with her, but after a while I noticed that I couldn’t be without her – too late! I guess we should only give a second change when things like this happen, since it seems pretty obvious that when one doesn’t learn the first time, one will never learn – am I right? Anyway, I guess it’s entirely up to you and if you can’t live without her, you might give it another shot. But before you do that, please take a lot of time to think if you’re able to deal with another break up like those, since each one will take some more healthy years of life from you… Peace! Link to post Share on other sites
Author Deangelo Posted August 13, 2007 Author Share Posted August 13, 2007 thank you for the reply..right now, i was like assesing all of the thongs that have happened. and a while ago i was reading the stuff i was writing when i felt that she was cheating and i had hunches that there is something going on and that i was slowly losing her..while reading it I realized how much pain it caused me to go through all the crap ive been through. I love her, I do, but my mind comprehends that this aint going nowhere and i should drop this at once. But im solely thinking about the decisions and the move that ill be making. Right now, there is a sudden gush of emotion still but I am bearing it in my mind that if she really did loved me. or still she does, she'll find a way to PROVE IT and will make drastoc move to all this. But to what i see, she's just blabbing, saying it. its easy to say I MISS YOU and I THINK about YOU. when you think about what happened do you actually think that she's sincere? she doesnt even make an effort to do things. even if you say that she texting me, its not even consistent, there was a point she did not text me for 2 days and im like waiting in vain FOR WHAT? after all she did right? but she has way with the words...to me...that entangles me to her. what do you think people? Link to post Share on other sites
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