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I've done it for the first time and I can't think clearly


Krytellan

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Seriously. Why would I PM you when all you do is criticize me?

 

You're hysterical, you know you have - repeatedly!! :lmao:

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You're hysterical, you know you have - repeatedly!! :lmao:

 

Well, if that's the truth darlin', why won't you respond? I would love to hear from you :love:

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Well, we had the talk again tonight, as the status of the relationship was bothering her again. Throughout the talk it became clear that wherever each of us was, we were likely not going to be able to meet in the middle. She was developing feelings for me, and as much I was for her too, we were not in the same place and I could not tell her what she wanted to hear.

 

So I drove her home and she was obviously hurt and I had emotions that I have never had before and don't ever want to have again. I don't like being on this side. As I drove her home I would have given anything to be in her place instead of where I was. I can handle being in her position... I have practice at that. As much as I try to convince myself that I did my best in the situation, I can't help but feel slimy and like a tremendous ass. And I'm sure I'll have no lack of assurance of that fact from this forum.

 

Whether I'm selfish, insensitive, mean, or otherwise, I don't know how someone can do something like this to a person more than once. I never want to feel like this again, and I'm convinced that with whatever damage was done to everyone involved, I will never be at a loss for precedence. That was always my excuse, not knowing what it was to be on this side. Well now I do and it's an excuse I'll no longer use. Not only that, it's a hollowness I'll never forget.

 

I could have done this better. I hope I do it right next time. I couldn't go through this again.

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Whether I'm selfish, insensitive, mean, or otherwise,

 

I could have done this better. I hope I do it right next time. I couldn't go through this again.

 

more than anything you are newly divorced. Cut yourself some slack.. you are learning who you are and what you want all over again and you seem to be doing it with at least some emotional responsibility.

 

This is why I have always said that until the divorce is final and a person has been divorced 6 months to a year they are not really relationship material.

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K, you're really being hard on yourself...

 

Bottomline, the timing wasn't right. I know it hurts and she's hurting too, but neither of you are on the same page as for what the 'relationship' can bring and mean to both of you.

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