is he even thinkin about me

[ricekripy]

about a month ago me and my ex started having unknown problems. one day he he was meeting my dad and declaring his love for me sayin we could make it through anything. next day we had i discussion that led to an argument and he basically he was like since ur tired and im tired why dont we just call it quits for awhile. i figure he was speaking outta anger but the next 2 day i didnt hear from him so i finally called and said i was cool with the break up and i atleast wanted his friendship.

 

he called back an hr later saying he wasnt sure if he could handle the stress of being in the relationship along with him moving etc but he still loved me and wanted to make the best decision for us. mind u it was his idea for us to stay 2gether during the move. i told him to take a couple of days to figure it out and let me kno he said he would call me later and he didnt after a couple days of me calling and texting i got fed up (his bday was comming soon and he was gonna be gone) i had made plans for his bday so i sent a text sayin i was dropping off his gift and i was done. later that night he called and started explaining himself but his battery died before we got anywhere he never called back or anything after 2 days of not talkin i left a message telling him how i felt he sent me a text saying he knows he has been actin weird but he has a good reason and would call and tell me later after his meeting. and that we would be ok i never heard from him so after getting fed up again i told him i would do my own thing and he can do his b/c the whole situation was stupid.

 

2 days before his move 10 days before his bday i find out he lied about his age he was 19 not the 20 turning 21 year old i thought he was so i figured maybe thats why he was acting strange he knows how i feel about lying and and he knows i would have never dated him if i knew he was that he was that young ( never kne i had to ask for id these days) but once your so deeply in love so beautiful u cant just let it go b/c of something so stupid (or maybe u can) i called and told him i knew and its ok.

 

i never got call back. after a week of sleepless nights and thinkin about him and wanting him i called to see how his move went he didnt answer then either. its been a month and i started to date this wealthy guy who treated me like a queen and had it all but whenever i was with him all could do is think about this kid who didnt have anything but love. so im wondering now how could he just walk away he always said how much he loved me even though he knew i didnt feel the same and when i finally told him his face lit up like a kid in a candy store...so now i laying here with 2 ears full of tears crying wondering if he is thinking about me and why wont he just call if he still loves me. what do u guys think im not really holding my breath on us getting back together but i still have an ounce hope. i at least want him to be lonely for me like im lonely for him its not fairfor me to have to feel this way