its over text message

[alexa137]

my boyfriend sent me a text message last night saying "its over no more talking or calls or text"

i didnt respond i was devastated! you see i asked him to come over last night at 10pm to talk i just wanted to ask him one question--we were together 1 1/2 years he moved out last month kinda broke up still see each other 1-2 times a week for sex and talk everyday--argue alot etc...i just wanted to ask him if it will ever be like it used to me--i wanted to ask him seriously if he thinks we will ever go ouot to dinner, go to the racetrace and take rides go to the beach etc...or if he is just waiting for someone else to come along and holding onto me-we both love each other and dont want to see each other with someone else(long story i have like 50 posts on here!) we cant be together and we cant be apart--

i cried and didnt sleep all night--biting my tongue not to call or text him--now i think hes been online all morning probably wondering about me-because i didnt respond i am sure of that

i dont know what to do--i am gonna try to do no contact

i had to call in sick at work bcause of no sleep and nasea

help

[Cinabon]

I hate to ask. But do you think there might be someone else? I really dont want to add to your pain. But I had to wonder , since he ended it over a text and couldnt face you

[alexa137]

i really dont know--hes been saying hes doing nothing but men lie so i cant believe what he is saying and he still comes to me for sex every couple of days-believe me i wish i knew b cause then it would be much easier to let go--i have even asked him to tell me so that i can leave him alone--its very complicated and long story-we say things we dont really mean but just wondering if hes for real this time or what--ive got a headache and cant see bcause i cant stop crying-he is the love of my life! ive tried some spying but he is always home or at his dads( acrross the street from me) like i told him i guess i will have to actually see him with another girl somewhere to actually believe it bcause i have no one to ask to find out and they probably wouldnt tell me anyways! dont know what to do

[ToriJ]

Hi im kinda going through the same thing. Very long story, he cheated due to a lot of things and its over 4 months. I wouldnt speak to him for nearly 3 months. At that stage my anger had died down and we started talking. At first i was taken aback by how utterly devastated he was. Very scary to see someone i love in so much pain. Anyway we talked for a few weeks and on saturday nite i said some things that i regret now but it led to him sending me a text on sunday evening saying goodbye for good and he wont text ever again.

Its very hard to deal with right now but as i am unable to get back with him i know its the best thing to do. Im also thinking of him. He went on a lads holiday 2 wks ago and spend most of his time emailing and calling me telling me how unhappy he was. The night before he went he was very very close to suicide (not the first time since we broke up) so i cant risk messing his head up again.

Its killing me being away from him and not talking to him but i also cant hug him and kiss him and be open with him after what he did so ive no choice but to stick to NC. If i decide that i can give him another chance i will get in contact with him but otherwise i have to be strong for me and for him and stay away. Its really not easy.