an unexpected break

[smartyPants246]

So my boyfriend and I started dating at the end of my senior of year of highschool, he was a junior. What was supposed to just be a "fling" turned into a really serious relationship. When I left for college I broke up with him but at school found myself missing him terribly and just thinking about him. During that time I kissed two boys. both times all I could think was, this is not my BF. We ended up getting back together that January (we never stopped talking through this). He went to a school about a 12 hour bus ride away the next year and we saw eachother at least once a month throughout the next year until the start of his sophomore year he decided that he had been "having doubts". So we took a break which lasted about a month and a half. During this time neither of us saw other people. We got back together and were so happy. We had the most amazing summer, no fights, just loved eachother and cried when we had to leave each other again. I just started my senior year at college and out of nowhere he calls me up and tells me that out of the blue he cannot do the long distance thing anymore. He is planning on going abroad in the spring and is "freaking" out and needs to be single right now. It broke my heart. This was the second time and I have never been so hurt by a person. but I cannot stop thinking and loving him. I know he loves me too and just wants to be the right kind of man for me, to mature, be his own person for a while and then "fight to get me back in his life". my question is...HOW DO I PLAY THIS ONE. I have gotten advice from so many people telling me to shut him out completely etc...I think he needs this break but I don't want to justify or condone his actions. I am hurt and don't know what to do. I still love him so much and I know he loves me. He wants to stay separated but come visit me in two weeks and still wants me to fly (i had already bought the ticket) to see him next month.... do I do this? or do I hope and pray that the farther I push him away so he can have his break the sooner he will come back. Or do I just try and forget him, go crazy, and enjoy my senior year..... I have never been happier with a person and noone has ever known me better...or so I think. I can't do anything and am so down about this. has anyone else been in this situation?? HELP!!!!!