I'm Jealous of my boyfriends Ex-Girlfriend

[luv4music18]

I'm new to this so be easy on me. I'm completely JEALOUS of my boyfriends ex-girlfriend. Can't blame me since she was his first love. Its hard to share things with him that he already have done with his ex. Not so much fun . . . I just need help on how can I stop being jealous of her because some how I can't. I trust my boyfriend 100% but I don't trust her. She's pretty and they are really good friends. Sometime I just want to tell her to "BUG OFF and stop talking to MY BOYFRIEND"

 

I'm scared becasue I've been in love before and in the end my ex left me for his ex. I'm scared that it will happend again. I've talk to my boyfriend about this but he doesn't understand what I'm trying to say. I can't stand it. I once got so pissed off at him because he end up telling her about my situation about me being jealous of her. I was like "WTF, I don't want her to know that".

 

All I want is for once to hear him say how WONDERFUL I am infront of her and tell her that he LOVEs ME... Maybe thats the only way I will feel better and not have this awful curse.

 

JEALOUSY, I hate this feeling . . . Never in my life have I been jealous of girl talking to my boyfriend.

 

Also I know this is bad and really bad but I actually went into his ex-girlfriends page and read her picture comments. What made me feel bad is that he actually wrote in one of her pictures that she is breath taking.

 

I HAVE IT BAD . . . PLEASE HELP ME GET RID OF THIS CURSE OF MINE . . .

 

I TURN LIKE THE GREEN MONSTER EVERY TIME THEY TALK . . . and I know I shouldn't . . .

 

Am I a bad girlfriend ? Can you blame me for it ? I really do wish for her to disapear from his life.

 

P.S. I dislike EXgirlfriends . . . Why can't they just leave them alone? and RESPECT that they have moved on and have a new girlfriend now.

 

and when I mean respect I mean respect because she very FLIRTY and I dislike her flirting with my guy.

 

Thank you and sorry for writting so much.