New Kid on the Block:Thank you all for inspiring me

[fidela666]

[COLOR=black]Hello All I am the new kid on the block.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]I found this website as I try to find as much as possible how it all starts and ends in a relationship with a MM.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]This was my first and last time ever being involved with a MM. It was an eye opening experience to read all of your stories and it was of great relief for me to know that I am not alone.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]Through your stories I have been able to find the courage to end once and for all what should have not start to begin with.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]I must admit that I have no regrets, being with a MM help me understand and learn how (not all men) but some men are, and the tactics they use to fool women like me into a relationship that will go as far as we allow it to go.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]My story is very similar to all of yours. I met Mr. Smooth operator (with the French accent and all) at work. I started working at the company (to which I no longer work) as an assistant (how typical ). He was (and still is) a high ranking executive. At first, I did not think much of him, and didn't even know how high in the corporate latter he was. Bumped into him a couple of times in the elevator and noticed that he liked me.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]It was at a corporate event that I noticed he wanted to get my attention and made me feel special. It was then that I started to have interest on him. I did the usual, try to get as much info. on him but it was difficult without raising suspicious thought of others. Needless since I was new in the company I did not want to make things obvious.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]So I found that who his assistant was and I started to make friends with her to get info. on him but had no success, she was new in the company too. I made a bold move and brought some treat for the assistants in his area to introduce myself, and I finally got a chance to see him (since I had no other excuse showing him that I was interested in him). That same afternoon he came down to the area where I was working. It was an undercover signal that he was interested in me too.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]I finally got a chance to see him in the elevator and ask him if he was attending the company sponsored event, and he said yes, so I told him I that I was looking forward to see him there. It was obvious that we both liked each other. At the event he gravitated towards me, I was going crazy trying not to make it obvious that I like him. The event was for 3 days, the first night once the last meeting was over (after spending the whole day looking at each other), he came to me and ask me how I was, so we went for a walk and as we porously got lost he reached out and kiss me. I could not believe it, it was magical.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]The following 2 days was more difficult to find a way to be alone. All we could do was see each other from the distance. Finally on the last day we had a chance to talk briefly, he asked me if I was married or had kids (little that I knew he had already done research on me). And so I told him that I was going through divorce and that I had a kid (I have been separated for 3 years now, still waiting on divorce papers to be finalized).[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]I was so nervous I did not ask him if he was married (stupid that I was I did not see him wearing a ring so I assumed that he was not).[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]Before I left the resort I told a waitress to give him my phone number, but he never called.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]The following week I was expecting something to happen. Since I could not get any info on him I decided to Google him and my heart dropped, he was a very very powerful and well connected man . Eventually I had to get some information from him (work related) and so I asked his assistant to let him know that I needed him to call me. He called me and I frozed, did not think being who he is, that he could possible be interested in me (mind you that I am a very attractive girl and I get a lot of attention). He asked me with his French accent how I was, and I told him wondering. He then told me that life was too short, don't make things complicated [/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]I did not know what that meant, and I still have not been able to get any info. on him. Little that I knew one of the girls that works at the office and with whom I have become closed was working on his behalf gathering all of my details (found out about it later when I decided to leave the company). Her and I went to a lunch break and told me that he was married. I was devastated, how he could have possible kiss me and flirt with me when he was married. I called him and ask him if I could talk to him, and he said yes. I went to his office and asked him if he was married and he said yes. I then told him that it was too bad, and he asked why? and I told him isn't it obvious? I then left his office and decided that this was not going to happen. Immediately after, he proceeded to try to be around me as much as possible, to show me that he was still interested on me. I was dying inside, because I felt I had falling for him with just a kiss.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]3 months went by and we just looked at each other from the distance, it was intense, I felt butterflies in my stomach every time I saw him, but I tried as hard as I could to keep my distance. We were getting ready to attend another event and he called me asking for my boss, I told him that he could leave a message, and then he told me that he was looking forward to see me at the event, and that he wanted to get to know me, and I told him that I wanted to get to know him too. Once at the event, I called him and he got together, I just wanted to have a taste of him. He on the other hand wanted obviously more. We kissed and we touched but did not do anything. I thought that it was not only inappropriate because he was married, but because we worked together, and there was no way I was going to be able to work in with him once something happened. Obviously, he was not happy when I said no. 3 months passed by and I tried as much as I could to avoid him. I then called him and ask him if he wanted to get together (at this point I was already feeling for him), he then told me that we will talk about it. Before the year ended I gave my resignation, I got a better offer and gave my two weeks noticed. My boss worked closed with him, and sure enough, with in 45 minutes of me giving my two weeks noticed he called and asked me if it was true and I told him yes. He then told me that things were going to be easier now. He asked me for my cell phone number and he then called me so that I could have his. We went to another company event and there he was always around me, I told him that I wanted to get together on my last day of work, which was on a Friday and he agreed to it. Friday came along and he stood me up. I was furious after all the running around he bailed out on me.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]So I left and never looked back. I was still friendly with his assistant and after I left he kept in touch on line, we went out a couple of times for drinks. Needless to say she will tell me everything about him (little that I knew she had a crush on him and was suspicious of me). In our endless conversations on line she will hint that she knew about us, at first I thought nothing of it, I guess there were rumors, and she just wanted to know. 4 months after I left the company, she was telling me how upset she was with him, all the work, bla bla bla, so I sent her a great article in advice on how to deal with her work problems. I then made the biggest mistake and I sent it to him. With in seconds he responded to my e-mail and asked me where I was and to call him. I then felt that he still remembered me and he still wanted me. So I called and agreed to finally get together. He came to my place and it was amazing, it was everything I thought it was going to be. What I did not know was how to go about it. I was not particularly interested in a relationship. At the time I had not been involved with anyone for about a year, and I was in need [/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]I thought that even if I did not have him all the time, it will be more like we will get together once in a while. I had no idea of the brujaja that involved. Not to mention the mind games he was playing to still keep me interested. I asked my old friend from work (that one that is friends with him for advice if I should go ahead and continue, I never revealed to her his name, but I know she knew, I confirmed it later). His assistant then asked me straight up if I hooked up with him while at work and I told her that it never happened. It was then I realized that he had two people helping him out, trying to get info. on me. I decided to stop talking to his assistant. I asked him if he had told his assistant about me, and he denied it. He got together one more time, and he started asking me how my week was and all that stuff and I was not about to share too much with him, for fear of being too emotionally involved (which I was but I did not want to escalate it even more but completely opening up). He resented that, and the next time we agree to see each other he cancelled on me. I was disappointed, but I knew that he was a MM and that cancellations were part of the deal. I then try to schedule another time and he left me message telling me that he was returning my phone call. At this point I said enough is enough, so I left him a message and told him that he did not have time for this and I did not have the patience. I did not call him for another 2 months. I did however send him funny e-mails, as a sign of no hard feeling we can be friends. I never expected him to respond to any of them. One day he responded and I freaked out!! he asked me if I was still upset and I told him no, life is too short I don't make things complicated. He then asked me to be more direct. I told him that it bothered me that he had no consideration for my time, and that if he could not get together, he did not have to lie to me, I already knew that there were going to be times when he will not be available, but the least he could do is to be honest and let me know (as if he could be honest with anyone ). A week passed by and I still wanted to see him. I didn't think he will respond to me, so I sent him and e-mail and asked him if he wanted to get together, and we did. It was amazing being with him. And so I thought that we could continue to see each other. What I then realized it was that it was only going to be on his terms, when he wanted and how he wanted it. And I was not having it. I stopped sending him the funny e-mails and the once a week phone call just to say hello. I thought of a nice way to let him know that I learned how to play the game too. I sent him a great article and he responded I will give a call next week. And he did call me and I did not answer. He called me the next day and I did not respond. I made him wait a week before I sent him and funny e-mail. He called me with in minutes of receiving it. I told him that I was going to call him back. 4 hours later I called him and he started interrogating me, where have I been, why did I call him, bla bla bla (he had the never to ask for explanations as if I was his girl), I must admit I loved it; I hit him where it hurts the most, his ego. So I made up some BS that I was really busy at work. Then he told me that he wanted to see me, and that he thinks about me every day, and I told him that I was not available in the next 2 weeks. So he told me to call him when I was available. I was happy to see him clinch, but then stupid side of me gave in, and all night all I could think of was when he told me that he thinks about me every day (yeah right). So the next day I call him and he did not answer the phone. So I was really angry, I sent him and invitation to meet me at a hotel to his calendar, his assistant asked him what was that all about and he called me with in minutes, and asked me what stupid things I was doing, and I told him that I did not know that she had access to his calendar. I told him good bye and I have yet to hear from him again. It has been two weeks.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]I then found this website and realized how my story is not the only one. It was through this website that I have found the strength to no call him and receive any of his phone calls. Even though in part this affair with a MM went as long as I allowed it, I realized that did not like to be his toy, to use me only when he wanted to. I wanted to believe that I was special in his life, that he really liked me, as I liked him, not for his money, or political influence, but because I was genuinely physically and sexually attracted to him. [/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]I now feel relieved that it is over, and that I am leaving behind a person less naive, who play the game as good as he did.[/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]All I wanted to was to have a reliable source of vitamin D (if you know what I mean ) and I am not going to settle for less. I deserve to be service more then once a month or whenever he feels like it. [/COLOR]

[COLOR=black]Thank you for all of your stories, you have giving me the strength to know that I don't have to sit here and wait for him. I can have anyone I want to, and I was able to dump him Mr. smooth operator with the French accent, the powerful job and political connections. So yes, I am happy. And I bet his assistant is more jealous then ever, to know that I got him, something she could not do even when she gets to see him every day.[/COLOR]