Need assistance!!! Potential LDR and i need ...

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I do media installations for a living. WE had a job In LA(some 80+ miles away from me) i was at a clients house and they had this nanny girl that worked there and she was just so amazingly beautiful to me... I was very distracted from my work and I tried my hardest not to get caught looking at her. I had to remember that I just got the job and it's business before pleasure always.

 

Anyways, as usual I thought it was just me being weird and thinking about her too much... BUT, she was giving several subtle indicators. These indicators were that she always was going near me many times, she came into the room I was in when she thought the phone rang and looked me into the eyes asking but the phone didnt even ring, almost as if to use it as an excuse just to be near me or get in a situation where I may engage conversation with her. I am so terribly shy and she was just the most gorgeous woman I had ever encountered ... Truth is I Was totally speechless by her beauty I just could not manage to talk to her... i think she just wanted to be near me. she would walk by me a lot too... Its really hard to explain but I know shes putting off indicators, and my heart just feels like opiate withdrawal because me and her were in the same room alone and I was too shy to share my feelings with her... she probably ended up thinking I am not interested in her but this is very much not the case... I was... I just didnt want to risk my job or anything if she was offended by me asking her out. I personally think I missed my window of opportunity but check this out, Im going back there in 2 weeks to finish the job... There is a 10% chance she will show up... If she is still interested in me what should I do? I was thinking of just saying Hi and smiling to her and trying to initiate flirting or something... I really wanted to give her a 'lets be friends' greeting card in a very nice envelope to leave a good emphasis and remembrance of how i feel before I depart(Only if I discover we like each other). I dont think she has a boyfriend, she was not pushing away from me even in the slightest. I remember going to throw the trash away when she was in the kitchen I was close to her and she did not put her self away from me(boundary zone check).

 

I seriously feel like im withdrawing from opioids not that i do drugs but theres no other way i can describe this feeling. My heart just aches knowing that I missed my window of opportunity to talk to her. The reason I was shy and didnt act on the window of opportunity was because I live so far away and have no car I just felt it was unrealistic.. but she was so beautiful... i felt as if I could spend much time with her and never ever get tired... But my friend was telling me I shouldn't have let my circumstances interfere - because she has a car and may like me enough to drive to see me... I could also just tell her I want to go out with her some day.. but kindly let her know how far I live from her - then find out if shes into LDR and if not , tell her id like to have her in the future when im ready(im making money at a good rate, i should hav a car soon). my co worker also told me i should have asked her out but i told him I dont want to get in trouble on the job...

 

I need advice here is this love in the making... I never felt this way about a girl before in my entire life... Ive never had a girl give me these indicators. I cannot deny what is going on... i really need some help... some guidance on this... Best advice would be tell me what to do? I am trying to listen to my heart and it says just that .. if that 10% chance hits, in 2 weeks im assigned to that job, and she shows up im telling myself that it was meant to be..if she doesnt show up, then it isnt meant to be ... but just in case I Want to have a very beautiful greeting card 'lets be friends' or something of that nature in a nice ornate envelope so when I leave her i have something fancy to give her... that's assuming she hasnt lost interest or found another guy... I should have a plan of action ready just in case please help me out!!!

 

Chances are I will be at that job, do you think when I leave I should just leave the envelope with her name on it somewhere where she will find it? But im scared to do this.. It seems the family that lives in the home think im a good man and I Dont think there would be a problem if i did something like that, but it just seems risky and strange without actually confronting her... I Really think if shes there when i am(~10% chance) it was meant to be, if not, then it wasnt... i think by leaving a card like that id just seem weird and jeopradize my job...