i love her, and she ?

[T - mac]

well i have been friends with this girl for over 3 months now, we are like best friends, and we do things every weekend... i have had very strong fealings or her since like the day i met her, and i finaly told her i liked her...

 

and she was cool with it, she was like well thats fine, im glad u told me, and she didnt want it to change our friendship... and then she went on to tell me about her last relationship which turns out to be a 1 and a half year relationship and in the end her boyfriend treated her like **** and then the split up after a whole bunch of drama. and after that i was fealing really ****ty and i told her that i might not be able to talk to her for a while and she got realy sad and stuff and told me that she didnt want that to happen and stuff. and its wierd but sometimes she has dreams and then they happen, and she said that she dreamt about 4 weeks ago that i told her i liked her and then hugged her and that she was confused and stuff, and she told me that last night, since we went out to pizza hut and then walked around the city for my birthday with her sister and her friend, she told me that last night she was looking into my eyes and for a sec she couldnt stop and that she fealt really happy... whatever that means, and then she said well how about this...

 

rite now anything can happen between the two of us, and that we shouldnt rush anything and that we should take things slowly. and rite now im fealing a mixture of extreme sadness, confusion, and im also worried of what is going to happen to our friendship now that i told her. and im not sure what to make out of what she told me, she definately didnt say she liked me, but the thing she said about anything can happen between us rite now, i dont know what to make out of that, is she saying that it is possible that we will be more than just friends someday? is she saying she is open to the idea of a relationship?

 

i she doesnt want a relationship at all as more than friends, i dont know how long i can ignore my fealings for... and she knows that, but i just dont know what to do...

 

please help, give me your oppinion.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

if you feel like reading this is what was happening before...

 

Ok well first of all let me tell you a little about me. i am from Washington state, but i am currently living in Puerto Vallarta, Jalisco Mexico. i am 15 years old, and am not Mexican, but have lived here in Vallarta from the age of 3-7 and speak fluent Spanish. i am here to stay with my mom for a year and go to school. my last relationship failed miserably when she got drunk and stoned and had a foursome in a van with 3 other people. i on the other hand, am still a virgin, and plan on staying that way until i meet the rite person. not to say that i didn't love her, i could talk to her about anything, and she was always there for me when i had problems with my dad and stuff. but anyways, before i came to Mexico i told myself that i wouldn't get into any relationships because my last one was putting a lot of strain on me and was doing me almost as much harm as it was good.

 

but ive meet a great, beautiful, nice, girl that i have liked ever since the day i met her. and she shows all the signs of liking me. she has been sitting next to me in almost every class since like the third day of knowing me, and when there aren't 2 seats next to each other left, she has practically begged people to move so she can sit next to me. she also is touching me all the time. she is always bumping me with her knees, playing with my hair, and combing it, leaning on me, gently pushing me with both hands, grabbing my wrists and pulling me when she wants me to come with her somewhere, laying her head on my shoulder when she laughs really hard or is sad. sometimes when she comes up to me and talks to me she stands like less than a foot away from me almost to the point where i cant breathe, she laughs at almost all my jokes, she plays with her hair when shes talking to me, she has kind of hinted at things that we could do in the future, like when i said that i don't ever do anything here because there isn't anything to do she said like "wow, we have to do something okay?" she has also asked me about ex girlfriends, and she asked me how many girls i have kissed, and did i like it, and stuff like that. and ever since she met me she has been asking questions about me like crazy, i swear, she knows more about me after 3 weeks than any other person i know hahaha. she told me that that is the way she gets to know people and stuff but i don't know. she also has my MSN and talks to me every day on it, and she just asked me for my cell phone number yesterday. i know it really sounds like she likes me, but there are some things that she does that hint to me anyways, that she wants to just be friends.

 

for instance she has showed me pics of her kissing another guy. and when people ask us if we like each other, she says no, and even though the first time it happened, she was really defensive about it, and said that there was a fine line between friends, and boyfriends and girlfriends, and now when people ask she just says no and is really calm about it and then doesn't feel at all embarrassed or uncomfortable about touching me or talking to me or anything the way she normally does rite after they ask. and i know that she touches me and stuff all the time but it seems like she does that with her other guy friends too, just not as much, and not in the same way. and also, when i leave school she doesn't kiss me on the cheek, she just does a handshake thing, since that is the way people say hello and goodbye here. and for some reason, i just have a horrible feeling that she just wants to be friends.

[Yamaha]

You know you can't just be friends with her; not now and maybe not ever. She likes you as a friend and sometimes she has some caring feelings for you but that is not the kind of feelings you have for her. If she is your friend she will understand that you need to stop hanging with her until you can do so without wanting to hold her and kiss her. You need to break away so you can find someone that wants the feelings you have for them. Don't waste your life on someone that can't reciprocate your feelings as it will just cause you resentment and bitterness.

[T - mac]

You know you can't just be friends with her; not now and maybe not ever. She likes you as a friend and sometimes she has some caring feelings for you but that is not the kind of feelings you have for her. If she is your friend she will understand that you need to stop hanging with her until you can do so without wanting to hold her and kiss her. You need to break away so you can find someone that wants the feelings you have for them. Don't waste your life on someone that can't reciprocate your feelings as it will just cause you resentment and bitterness.

 

yeah i know ur rite, i told her that i might not be able to talk to her for a while, and she freaked, she was really sad when i said that, and well today at school she was a lot more flirty than normal... but still, i know that i cant ignore my fealings forever, but i dont want anyone else, and im willing to wait quite some time to let her get over her last relationship. and now she is asking me to change schools with her... and i dont know what to do.

[T - mac]

ok well lately things have been getting more and more stressful, this weekend i didnt get to see her for whatever reason, and lately i just havent felt like she is as happy when im around, im not sure why, maybe its problems she is having rite now or something, but it has been getting harder and harder every day, because its getting really hard to ignore my feelings for her:eek:. i really dont know what im going to do, i dont know how long i can wait anymore for her to decide that she is ready to have a relationship with somebody, but i know one thing, if i leave her and stop talking to her, i wont have anyone else, because she is my best friend and i do almost everything with her, and im in mexico rite now going to school here, and she speaks the best english of any of the kids in my school, even though i am pretty fluent in spanish.

 

so please, any advice or tips would be oh so very much appreciated.