Just A Fool In Love?

[J.LO]

We are both 19, and we've quite abit of history together. Things always happened when we were around eachother. We played games when we were younger...and now out of nowheres we started becoming serious.

 

Just 4 months ago we started getting intimate..until I was mad at him because we got in a fight one night and i left. But now we are just starting it up again...and now I'm not sure what to do.

 

We had a fight lastnight because we both want to be boss...over eachother, but I was only kidding and then he said things that really hurt me. Right now we just send pictures...and talk dirrty to eachother....but we want to take it even further now..and in a week were planning to become sex buddies at his house.

 

The thing is I don't know what I want..I want this but at the sametime..he hurts me when he gets all mad..out of nowheres..it's like he has pms.

 

And we have such a strong connection...like he stares at me all the time..and he said there's something different about me then anyone else..and he said he doesnt understand it and it makes him pissed off why.

 

I feel like a total idiot for coming back to him...this is been going on for too long. But still I can't leave...I did for a year..but he always comes back. And it's like I can't make myself not go back. He's the only guy I get along with in the sex department..and he lets me be free and speak my mind. I can be whatever I want. But it's like he likes to piss me off on purose..and usually we do makeup..unless I leave him and then we just keep repeating this all over again.

 

We fight over the stupidiest things...friends tell us we fight like a married couple.

 

Anyways..besides him..I did like this other guy...he thinks I'm not that into him...and I try showing him..but he's not getting it. I can see myself liking him more...because he is nicer to me...and when I'm in his arms I feel great.

 

The bad thing is..he's a bad boy...and people are always trying to hurt him. He can't escape that world because they purposely come over and try and hurt him. And he has gf's every once in awhile..but what I relaized he is more closer to me then he is with them..he tells me things..he actually laughs and smiles...sings to me...and just acts silly. And when he hugs me he really hugs me not like that one arm thing he does to other people...

 

Most people don't see that side of him so when I tell my friends they don't believe me..until they see the way he looks at me..and then they say he must like me.

He is younger then me...by 2 years and afew months...is that okay?

 

Anyways thankyou soo much for listening and any help would be greatly appreciated because I feel soo incredibly lost.

 

Jenn