MsMartha Posted November 2, 2007 Share Posted November 2, 2007 I thought I was being strong. However, I am still sitting here thinking about us. His lies. His gaslighting me. And all I do is cry. Where is that anger that sustains my will? Am I forever doomed? He just went back to the arms of the OW for comfort. I have this forum, and not much else as far as comfort goes. Why does HE get off easy? Why? I left him. It felt great for one hour. Can't even listen to music. Everything remids me of something. Listening to A Change Gone Come Sam Cooke.......... Just makes me cry, but I am trying to believe. Thanks for listening. Link to post Share on other sites
annieo Posted November 8, 2007 Share Posted November 8, 2007 Ms Martha, I am sorry that no one (including me, I just read your post) has responded. Hang in there. You may not feel strong, but you must be, or you wouldn't have had the courage to end things. Deep down, you love yourself and that is why you aren't willing to be treated like ****. Self-love is the first, most important love. And you have that. Even if it doesn't feel like it right now. I am sure that many of us know what you are feeling. You are not alone, and you are not the first (or last) person who has to walk this particularily lonely path. I wish you all the strength that you need to get through to the other side (and it's there, believe me). Link to post Share on other sites
Ocean-Blue Posted November 8, 2007 Share Posted November 8, 2007 If he cheated, you leaving him was the best thing you could have done. No doubt, it'll tear you apart for a while...but that's usually how it goes down. You'll bawl your eyes out and remember. But you WILL move on. And you WILL be happy. Trust me. Link to post Share on other sites
LakesideDream Posted November 8, 2007 Share Posted November 8, 2007 There are no easy answers, are there? I feel real compassion for you, and for everyone who is feeling the kind of pressure you are under. I was lucky. I managed. I took me a couple of years to begin to settle into a tolerable routine. Another six months or so to stop hating. I'll let you know when I reach a place where I'm really happy as a normal state of mind. Here's hoping I live long enough to enjoy again. Here's the best of luck to you. Link to post Share on other sites
Ariadne Posted November 8, 2007 Share Posted November 8, 2007 Sigh, I left him. It felt great for one hour... He just went back to the arms of the OW for comfort. Well, good luck. Hopefull he'll come back. Then you can forgive him and all that stuff. Ariadne Link to post Share on other sites
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