carrotgirl Posted November 10, 2007 Share Posted November 10, 2007 I spent the day doing nothing. I have no motivation to move, wash, brush my teeth, get dressed, clean my place. Nothing. I don't know why. I don't even have anything going wrong. I'm not sick. I'm depressed for no good reason. Carrot Link to post Share on other sites
chall24503 Posted November 10, 2007 Share Posted November 10, 2007 I have been there. Trust me you have to shake it off and make yourself do things. Maybe you should see a doctor and let them know how you are feeling. I was like that for along time and ended up from other things going on with my health. Take care and good luck. Link to post Share on other sites
Spinderella Posted November 10, 2007 Share Posted November 10, 2007 Carrot ((((hugs)))) Link to post Share on other sites
kittensmittens Posted November 11, 2007 Share Posted November 11, 2007 I spent the day doing nothing. I have no motivation to move, wash, brush my teeth, get dressed, clean my place. Nothing. I don't know why. I don't even have anything going wrong. I'm not sick. I'm depressed for no good reason. I'm right there with you. I'm so sorry you feel this way, because it's certainly NOT fun. Maybe you need to just take some time out for yourself. Take a little break for a day or two (if you can). I know it's good to stay busy when you're going through a break up, but sometimes we also need to just take some time out. (Just be careful b/c it's a slippery slope w/ depression....the idea is to recharge, not to get into an unproductive pattern). Can you call a friend up? Especially an old friend you haven't seen in a while? I did this today and it actually made me feel a bit better. If you can't do this, maybe you could find a project to start or a book to read that will get your mind off things for a little bit each day. I agree with chall, it may be time to call the dr. I finally did this the other day when I just couldn't take anymore. Anyway...I know how you feel! I hope we both start feeling better... Link to post Share on other sites
Lizzie60 Posted November 11, 2007 Share Posted November 11, 2007 I spent the day doing nothing. I have no motivation to move, wash, brush my teeth, get dressed, clean my place. Nothing. I don't know why. I don't even have anything going wrong. I'm not sick. I'm depressed for no good reason. Carrot that's not depression.. this is just a 'veggie day'.. nothing wrong with that.. actually it's quite fun once in a while... just to do NOTHING... Enjoy! Link to post Share on other sites
alwayshurt Posted November 11, 2007 Share Posted November 11, 2007 I spent the day doing nothing. I have no motivation to move, wash, brush my teeth, get dressed, clean my place. Nothing. I don't know why. I don't even have anything going wrong. I'm not sick. I'm depressed for no good reason. Carrot Carrot, I have felt like you for a while. I had three break ups in the last three years. One worse than the other. But the good news is by going thru this you get stronger. You probably don't see it now, but you will. I had to be honest, the second one was the worse, but I also spent more time with that woman. If you can, get busy and you'll see it will be easier to move on. But I know it is not easy. If you can't try to deal with your current emotions. One day you will wake up sick and tired of this s**t. That day you will have moved on. Hang in there. Link to post Share on other sites
Author carrotgirl Posted November 11, 2007 Author Share Posted November 11, 2007 I did a little work. That made me feel better. I ate some beans, no toast. My brother suggested that I was dehydrated and he was right. Fluids helped. The food is helping too. Link to post Share on other sites
Trialbyfire Posted November 11, 2007 Share Posted November 11, 2007 Much sympathy. I went through a short spiel of depression after d-day so I understand how you feel. Keep yourself eating, and drinking fluids. If this continues for a number of days, force yourself to go for a walk or work out. Push yourself. It's the only way to break out of your funk, if you find yourself falling heavily into one. Link to post Share on other sites
LakesideDream Posted November 11, 2007 Share Posted November 11, 2007 Carrot, I went through the same things that you are going through now beginning some seven years ago. No nothing helped. I lost a bunch of weight (which I have no re-aquired), a big meal for me was a half a bowl of soup and a cracker, not a prime rib, with a big baker. The only difference was I slept well. After getting pretty much wasted every night for six weeks (I'm not normally a drinker) I had a wonderful Kitty Kat who would emote me to sleep every night. It became my best time of life, drifting off to sleep. I'm pretty sure that as time goes on what you feel will lessen in intensity, the feelings may not ever go away entirely. I honestly can say that I occasionally feel those old feelings. I suspect that I know what it will take to cure this situation. Yea, my friends will all told me, and I've read it everywhere. I won't give a dame about the past when I have a future... Now the only fly in the ointment is finding the perfect gal to fall in love with, and to live happily ever after. No biggie eh? Link to post Share on other sites
underpants Posted November 11, 2007 Share Posted November 11, 2007 Carrot, You are in the thick of the fog. The eye of the storm. Halfway there. Time to hoist the sails, and prepare for the waves of the next week. You are going to sail out of this storm beautifully. Link to post Share on other sites
sao2 Posted November 11, 2007 Share Posted November 11, 2007 Boo. downtime is the worst. I had a great night out on the town Friday and then Saturday . . . plehuth . . . Hugs carrot Link to post Share on other sites
Author carrotgirl Posted November 11, 2007 Author Share Posted November 11, 2007 I'm sorry to be such a drag. I managed finally to bathe. I brushed my teeth. I dressed and got out to the pharmacy for more happy pills. I took two. Think I'll try to sleep now. Thank you for the good words. They're making a difference. All of them. Carrot Link to post Share on other sites
sedgwick Posted November 11, 2007 Share Posted November 11, 2007 Huge Love To You Carrot!!!!!! Link to post Share on other sites
Grace112 Posted November 11, 2007 Share Posted November 11, 2007 <<hugs>> I hope you're having a better day today! Link to post Share on other sites
Author carrotgirl Posted November 12, 2007 Author Share Posted November 12, 2007 Not really a better day. Chatted very briefly with GD a few minutes ago. He doesn't seem to be doing so hot either. He sounds pretty bad really. I didn't mention my horrible weekend. He seemed so off I really didn't want to stay on the phone. I had the unmistakable, unshakable feeling if I went over he'd be very relieved. And probably I should go over. But I ate onions with my supper and vanity is keeping me from bothering to bother. That and I don't really feel like it. I had a terrible weekend. I don't feel strong enough to put myself out (yah, the whole couple blocks walk) by going to GDs flat. I think I'll just stay in with Cat and maybe take another hot shower. Just talking with GD a couple minutes left me soooo tired in the aftermath. Carrot Link to post Share on other sites
hopeforlove243 Posted November 12, 2007 Share Posted November 12, 2007 Hi Carrot, I followed your story a little, so are you and GD friends now? and only friends? do you see that you two can get back together? Link to post Share on other sites
Author carrotgirl Posted November 12, 2007 Author Share Posted November 12, 2007 Hey Hope, can you explain what you're asking? I'm not being coy. I don't understand. Though I will say I am not sure what we are. I suppose the answer depends on who is asking and what time of day and how the wind is blowing. We're friends and yet more than friends.... and at times it seems we'll never ever ever be friends.... but back to the beginning. We're friends. I think the unspoken truth is that we love each other. What is the rest of your question? Carrot Link to post Share on other sites
hopeforlove243 Posted November 12, 2007 Share Posted November 12, 2007 Carrot, I don't mean being noisy here. I remember you were trying to do LC with him, then, you two started talking again, and he was helping you with work etc, so I guess you two are friends now. I am just wondering if you expect to have more with him, and if yes, how hard it is to control that feeling and just be his friend. Link to post Share on other sites
Author carrotgirl Posted November 12, 2007 Author Share Posted November 12, 2007 Okay. Expect to have more? No. I want to have more and I think there is a possibility for more in the future. For now I don't expect more or less from him as a person than I ever have. It's just not a natural way of being for me. Which isn't to say I'm an angel. I've encouraged GD to understand I'm moving on from him. It's not the truth but so what? Not everything is going to be the truth for a while. It's just not in my best interest to say hey GD, I'm spending quality time picking the splinters I got from pining for you all day out of my a$$.... Yah. So far wanting more hasn't gotten in the way. So no, it doesn' t make things harder. Sure, I've been missing the sex and the plain physical closeness. Recently we've been closer physically. Just in a basic way. He's moved closer. Regardless, sex wasn't remotely an issue for us so I'm not giving it much thought. What will be will be. Carrot Link to post Share on other sites
Author carrotgirl Posted November 12, 2007 Author Share Posted November 12, 2007 My instincts were right and lots of you had right instincts too. GD isn't coping so well. I can't tell you why I did it. He told me he wasn't doing so hot and I could have let it go but instead a while later I expressed a little concern to him. He responded. He's thinking things through a little differently. It doesn't mean we had a magical mending of "us" but GD has been increasingly unhappy and since he couldn't blame it on our relationship anymore, he started identifying other things that are making him unhappy. He's seeing his unhappy state isn't related to me, at least not this time. Like I said, no magic fixes, but we briefly talked about taking some time to get away together, an extended holiday next year and a little mini one next week or so.... And that's the news of the day so far. Carrot Link to post Share on other sites
MattyTee Posted November 12, 2007 Share Posted November 12, 2007 I wish more people would be able to look at their unhappiness in life and stop putting it down to everyone else but them Keep strong Carrot *hugs* Link to post Share on other sites
underpants Posted November 12, 2007 Share Posted November 12, 2007 That sounds promising. Just relax and be open (yet reserved). He has got to figure it out. Be there for him...just not too there. Not sure about the mini holiday. That could be good or bad. Time and his words/actions will show you where he is at. I am still rooting for you. Link to post Share on other sites
Author carrotgirl Posted November 13, 2007 Author Share Posted November 13, 2007 It's all talk until it's more than talk. Tonight we talked on the phone like we did when we first started dating and everything was fun and we laughed and shared with no worries about what would be. GD and I were on for a half hour and it seemed like ten minutes. We just talked. No agendas. Something I've noticed and wasn't sure - was it me being silly or was it for real? Recently GD's been dropping lines like "but you don't like tapioca" or "I thought you hated romance movies". Tonight it turns out - nope. He really is trying to let me know he thinks about me and pays attention. He made one of those comments and I just asked him about it. He told me, he really thinks about these things.... he remembers every quirky little detail about me. Things I don't even remember myself. It was a wow sort of thing. Carrot Link to post Share on other sites
hopeforlove243 Posted November 13, 2007 Share Posted November 13, 2007 Looks like there are some light at the end of the tunnel. It is very good sign that he remember all the details about you, and you two are talking about mini get away. I am happy for you. Link to post Share on other sites
sao2 Posted November 13, 2007 Share Posted November 13, 2007 Green with envy, but happy for you nonetheless!!! Link to post Share on other sites
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