What is wrong with me?

[Coastal]

Alright, let me preface this by saying this will be long, probably dull to most, and it is being written in a moment of mixed emotions of bitterness and jealousy. You could consider it a rant.

 

Anyways, here goes. I'm a 19 year old male college student at a prestigious university and am doing very well and hope to be successful, which looks on par. So I should be one of the happiest guys around, right? Well I'm not. I have not been more frustrated in my life than I am right now. It certainly stems from the fact that I have absolutely no social life when it comes to the females. I have a good amount of close male friends and am active in social settings every-so-often(although not as much as I'd like). I don't know why, but girls just don't notice me. They will forget my name the next time I meet them, don't continue the conversation if I start one up, never seem happy when I'm around, etc. Now I will compare myself to my roommate, who is in my bedroom with an unbelievably good looking, intelligent, classy girl he just met last weekend. I don't mean to sound rude because my roommate is one of my better friends, but he just doesn't have much to offer. He is about to fail out of school, is rude to women, and doesn't do as much socially as I do. I believe he met this girl on a bus going home last week, found out she goes to school in the area, got her number, called her a week later, and now god only knows whats going on in my room now, and it wouldn't surprise me if they became a couple. Anyways, I just don't see how guys like this can get girls like that, but I can't find a girl to hang out with on a weekend night if my life depended on it. Is it purely superficiality? I'm not good looking in my own opinion, but I'm certainly better looking than a ton of guys Ive seen with sensational looking girls.

 

I guess what Im getting it as the question why can't I meet a girl and have her be interested in me, answer my phone calls If I even manage to get her number, or be at least willing to give me a shot? I go to one of the biggest college cities in America.... part of me thinks it should be a lot easier.

 

Any replies would be appreciated. If not, I hope you at least had fun reading my story of self-pity and hopelessness

 

-Coastal