Will she ever come Back?

[Music Man]

I was in a relationship for 2 1/2 Years. We got married after 6 months

of dating. She had an ex who kept tabs on us through her 2 children

most ecpecially her daughter who was 15 at the time. It was pure hell

not being compltely assepted by her kids ( even the two older ones that

had moved out of the house) this caused problems with my sexual drive

with her as well. But I did love her with all my heart and it was the hardest thing I ever did to break up our marriage and tell her I couldnt be the one who was breaking up her family. Her ex also had gone to all their old friends and lied and said we were having an affair before they broke

up and divorced. This was not true, I had met her online after she was

divorced. I wanted to remain freinds and told her she had to deal with

her family issues and I had to find my self again. She took this very hard and begged me to come home and be her husband, that I was breaking her heart. I simply held her and told her I loved her but needed time. She wouldnt

wait and processed the divorce and kept my last name. I started doing things I knew I shouldnt do. I went to the casino,s and went dancing and

had a few one night stands. She started dating but not sleeping with a guy.

3 months later I raealized how much I missed her and text'd her that I miss her. She replied that we gave up a good thing and we were a great couple. We did the back in bed thing and got to seeing each other. I felt guilty that I had slept with a few women and confessed I had used protection and I was sorry. For two weeks she cried and made me feel horrible that I had lost intrest in her when we were married but that I could find that in someone else. She forgave me after 3 weeks and we continued our dating and talking about our future. I still did the going out and dancing thing because we were dating and not married. I would see her 3 to 4 times a week but liked my independence the other days . I went out maybe once every 3 weeks. She didnt like the environment of casino dance floors with all the smoke and things. Well to make a long story short she decided to join a gym and see a councelor. I am in retail here wher we live and when I found out she talked mostly about me, I reacted because my life was mine and I didnt like it shared to a stranger,

I had woken up that morning with the feeling she was going to break up with me, She told me her councelor said our relationship was unhealthy.

and that she was going to work out till exhaustion every day and fall into bed and go to a dinner and a movie every now and then told me that when we broke up before she had been sleeping with this guy and was sorry she beat me up so bad for what I did when she did the same thing.

I tex.d her and told her I would make it easy on her that we wre broken up and good luck in life(big Mistake), I had realized the minute I did this was a mistake. We had wonderful times together, we were as on and felt

so good when we were together we planned on remarrying and living our dream. I tex'd her and left a few voicemails to apoligize saying I sent that text so that she would respond in saying she wasnt going to break up and that she loved me. anyway she tex'd me back and said she wasnt listening to any of my messages and not reading my text's and that we wre over and she was feeling peace about it. A week later I went into her house to see her face to face beause I had no closure on what hapenned. I asked her if ther was another guy and she said yes and that she wanted to date other men( she later said this was a lie) I left in tears that she had given up and didnt want counceling or anything else. I did the no contact thing for a week, and in desperation wanted her to call me. She did and was straight forward that she was never coming back, dont wait for her and she misses me but feels at peace. She was sobbing through alot of this as was I. For two weeks I sent her flowers emailed her my love, tex'd her I love you,s with no response to this day. We have had our up's and downs but have always returned to each other. I am still a mess, it has been 30 days and cant even get out and golf or bike, I can barely function at work. I emailed her 2 days ago telling her I was not the kind of guy to bother her and have refrained from doing any kind of conmtact. She broke this off with me from a reaction to my text in one of the coldest ways possible...Just stopped no closure as to what it did to me or what I am goiong through. I am pathetic and numb and all I do is read the internet on how to cope. I have dated twice but just couldnt be me because I still love her. and I am helpless in feeling if I dont reach out to her she wil just forget and that is life. Please if anyone can relate to what I am going through, I need some solid advice, after reading posts on this website I feel I have blown my chances.

[thelegend]

First i want to say i'm sorry brother for what you are going through. I guess me being the first to post i have to give it to you straight. I think the magic is gone and so is she. She's not responding which usually means she's with someone else and doesn't want to be bothered with you anymore. I understand your pain and hurt but i think you messed up with that initial text that you wanted to leave. Women take everything we say to heart. So at least until some more time passes and she stops being angry she's not gonna respond. If you all had a strong bond then she may call you eventually but as of now i'd say your odds are slim to none.

[Music Man]

KIcking myself for that one...appreciate you honesty. I believe she

has changed her phone number....I sent a text and it shows undelivered...

Put me back to square one again