God its killing me inside!!!

[tokool2]

hey first time here. ok, here i go, i met this girl around march. her and i were/ are working on an art project together. i met her through a friend of mine which of whom is also working on this project (its actually their project, and he asked if i wanted to help). anyway, i proceeded with helping them on this project. at first i wasnt attracted to her,everything was just friends/project partners. but then after talking to her on the phone, and texting each other i developed a crush. one night at an art exhibit i had way too much to drink and spilled my guts and told her i couldn't work with her anymore because i had a crush on her. next day i called and apologized and told her that i still wanted to work with her, she was cool with everything and we continued to work. around july she called me and asked if i wanted to hangout with her on the fourth, i said yes and we did. it was a lot of fun and we enjoyed each otheres company. the next week i talked to her on the phone and she asked me if i wanted to help her with move some stuff, so i did. afterward we hungout talked and watched t.v.. we sat close to each other and she asked me to give her a massage on her arm, so i did. she fell asleep and i carried her to her room. she said i could stay over so i said ok. laying down next to her i became brave and kissed her. at first there was no respones but then she leaned over and kissed me back, then she curled up next to me and i was in heaven. the following weeks were great all the way up to august. one night as we were laying down she told me that the two of us couldn't continue doing what we were doing because if our friend found out that he would lose her respect (this never made sense to me) and that we were partners and we shouldn't be doing what we were doing, and also she had been in long term relationships before that ended up no where. my heart was broken, and i did fall into a deep depression, along with my car breaking down, being evicted from my apartment, and family problems. i was drowning my self in boose for two weeks after that. the cool thing is that she continued to be my friend and actually helped me out of my depression/ drinking so much.

 

the thing that sucks, i still have feelings for her but i dont say anything to her. i try to be a good friend and help her as much as i can with her art, and try to give as much encuragement as possible. im there to listen to her when shes feeling down, and i try to do anything for her. what im trying to say is should i tell her how i feel or just let things be?

 

oh yeah i continue to see other women but there hasn't been one that has caught my interest as she has. what do i do?

[Lovegod]

So for the last three months, you've been "heartbroken", correct?

 

You have two options. You can either continue the rest of your life being "heartbroken", or you can make an honest effort to quit wasting your energy and emotion on being heartbroken, and move on with your life.

Being friends with her will only keep you in your "heartbroken" rut. Cut contact with her and move on. Also, quit trying to find an exact replica to replace her. It's not going to happen. Work at finding a woman who is better suited for you than she was. A woman who is suited for you won't leave you.

 

Oh yeah, and don't stick your dink in the company ink. It makes your work environment awkward, and you'll have a more difficult time moving on with your life.