AriaIncognito Posted November 20, 2007 Share Posted November 20, 2007 Jmina, Congrats to you. You seem to be doing much better in the short time since you started this thread :-) I wanted to post because I can really relate to your post, in the areas of having that connection and having that attraction. Those are the very reasons I'm so afraid to let go. I never felt that way for any of my other exes, and it was so strong that I am afraid I'll never find something to match it. I hope I can... Anyway I guess I wanted to commiserate with you, because I know how much it confuses you to have someone say to you "i feel such a connection, you treat me so well, i'm so attracted" in one minute and then tell you they aren't sure of you in the next minute. It sucks. I hope I can let go someday like you are. :-) :bunny: bunnies for you. Link to post Share on other sites
carrotgirl Posted November 20, 2007 Share Posted November 20, 2007 Oh jays! Ya don't have to be gay to appreciate chicks with dicks! Or do ya? Matty? Did you just offer your penis away to the highest bidder? Or are you making a charitable donation? What's the deal here? Methinks you better hang on a wee bit longer to that morsel of flesh. Jmina!!! WOwWOwWow! What a beautiful self discovery. Lilies to you! Great big, brilliantly vivid, showy ones! Carrot Link to post Share on other sites
MattyTee Posted November 20, 2007 Share Posted November 20, 2007 Morsel!!!!!? Pffff ... I can't imagine what I might use it for. Charity might have a better use for it... Link to post Share on other sites
Author Jmina Posted November 20, 2007 Author Share Posted November 20, 2007 ha ha haha ha a you guys are great! thanks BHKS im really not thinking about her at all, and when i was last night it was more in humour and i felt free! i really think this chapter has closed. i woke up this morning feeling different still. the next test will be next month when i get my cycle!!! Sedgwick: i met my ex in a play, she sang the lead role and i danced some ballet for them. both of us were instantly drawn to one another. i remember dancing on stage and seeing her watching me and smiling! we didnt look back since that day. she was extremely attracted to me which is why we started both of our first lesbian relationship. we had a huge connection also it was really beautiful. =) we were close for about 2 years and together for about 11 months. during the relationship the was alot of strain on both of us as she was dealing with caring for her dying nanna, who she saw and treated like her mother, and i was ill with underactive thyroid in and out of hospital. once we "recovered" from this there were hard feelings from both of us that we didnt speak about. which put more strain on her and she felt stuck. she left me saying i was her soul mate, the love of her life, etc etc. and she was mine. we both knew we would see each other again someday and we really did love and adore each other. but then the breakup after a few weeks got messy. i was labelling myself as weak and hopeless without her and i lived up to it. so i couldnt stay in NC very well and this pushed her away. we havnt spoken in about 3 1/2 months. i will always adore her and love her but for now that chapter is closed! now im seeing guys again. im attracted to men, but i fall in love with woman. LOL. matty t, *awkward cough* thanks for the offer... Ariawoman. thankyou, yes i am doing much better on the inside in only a few days. You will find someone who feel attracted to AND connected to. i bet you didnt know you could even feel like that in the first place before your ex and doubted you would find it...then you did find it. So now you knwo what love is capable of, and it can happen again.but it wont if you continue to fear finding it again. how can you love if you fear? also its not about matching your ex is nothing to do with your ex. your not ready to even to thnk about finding another person again let alone wondering if they have the connection and attraction factor, just like your ex. so why worry about it now if that step is far away. its like jumping the gun in your healing. my advice if you dont mind me offering, is to write down everything 'about you' that relates to your ex, everything youve learnt, defined by all the feelings from your ex and your breakup, now keep what is a lesson well learnt, any tools gained and any warmth in your heart, the kindness you might have given yourself and drop the label that is defining all of these. "because of my breakup, because of my ex i am feeling this" you are then left with "stronger, open hearted, fighter" with out the 'ex factor' if you have problems with being forgiving and resenting there are exercises you can do to disolve these without even talking to your ex. this is what i have done and it has helped me emensly. Carrot girl: thankyou for the lillies!!! i have such a beautiful bunch of them resting in my mind now from all my friends on LS!! oh and matty t i am sure you will find use for it again one day....and then you will make up for it for the time its spent away now... just like your making up for not crying before, now. love to all Jmina . Link to post Share on other sites
funkybassplayer Posted November 20, 2007 Share Posted November 20, 2007 Morsel!!!!!? Pffff ... I can't imagine what I might use it for. Charity might have a better use for it... you still need it to make a pee, but i guess nowdays there must be a way to go toilet over the internet. You can do just about anything else! Keep it busy for now by yourself. Link to post Share on other sites
MattyTee Posted November 20, 2007 Share Posted November 20, 2007 Okay I've been persuaded, I'll hold on to it for now. You are right Jmina, one day I shall pee ... a lot. Link to post Share on other sites
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