Feeling Really Sick.

[mopar crazy]

AR, I feel your pain. Reading what you posted brought me back to my H's A, I had the same feelings. I am so sorry you are dealing w/ this. It's HELL! I know I never felt so much hurt in my life. He wanted out of the M also and denied any R w/ the OW.

 

You have gotten some great advice so far. I'm glad that you found LS. I wish I had found it when my H was having his A.

 

If you haven't sought IC I recommend that you do. I went to my family doctor and he prescribed me anti-depressants and sleeping medication. It helped, a lot! I could actually make it through the day w/o breaking down and crying all the time. My life was a mess. I had a hard time taking care of my children b/c I was such a mess.

 

Again, I'm sorry for your pain.

[ARDriver01]

I'm moving in with some friends this weekend. I'm getting a big truck to move and separate our things. She's getting a storage unit and I'm just packing everything and moving it into her unit first then into mine and my new apt.

 

I want it to go as smoothe as possible but she insists on being there thinking I might steal her sh**.

 

I really don't want to deal with her this weekend and I don't think that I can be civil while going through our old stuff. Wedding photos, couples pictures(framed)etc.. I don't think I can do that without cracking hurtful jokes like: "Hey, you wanna hang this up in your new place with him"? Oh, here's your wedding dress. You wanna keep this for a new beginning?" you know... stuff like that.

 

I don't like her very much. I told her mom to come with to be a mediator. I just hope my X keeps her mouth shut and doesn't ask for anything else.

 

I'm really, really loathing this. I'm thinking of just cancelling my cell phone, buying a new one with a new phone company just so that I don't have to go to Sprint with her to sign a change of liability. I really don't like having to deal with her. I wish I was rich so that I could have someone else do all this crap in my place.

[flavender]

Thanks for all your support guys. I really need it and appreciate every one of your posts.

 

One thing that eats at me is knowing that she's off with him. It makes me feel sick. I want to call and ask her why but I know that it will hurt more and I wont get anything from it. Nothing.

 

I feel like total refuse. I'm her trash. That sh** hurts real bad. I don't know how to shake it.

 

I have extreme highs where I feel kind of free from all the pain she's caused, and extreme lows. Does it just take time?

 

I've always had it in the back of my mind to work things out. Now I'm totally done and it's very strange and very cold.

I know it hurts like hell. I'm going throught the same thing as well. I asked her straight up if she had someone else that she likes better. Of course, she denies it. I've already seen an email message to a guy that she works with telling him how much she misses him. Our anniversary and my birthday are coming in Feb. I'm sure it will be quite festive. I also have highs and lows. I've even felt that I'd be better of dead. No sleep, no eating, and no focus at work. It's a big mess. She really acts like she doesn't care. She is happy go lucky talking to her friends on the phone. Walks around the house like she doesn't have a care in the world. My emotions tend to get away from me at times to the point I start thinking about doing something that will make her see how serious this is. I keep asking God to help me with this. I also ask him to keep my heart clean. Just hang in there as I will too. Hopefully, things will get better for us both. I'll be praying for you.