Long Distance, pressure and our break up I want him back

[brokenhearted9]

So my boyfriend and I have been together for 2 years I am 31 he is 36. During the two years his career took of and he was traveling about half the time to different countries. This made me insecure with him being away all the time I would pick fights with him even though I trust him completely. I was never sure that he was in love with me and I did a lot of testing.Breaking up and getting back together again wanting to date others because he was gone for such a long amount of time and he said this chipped at his heart. He would tell me he would not stay together with anyone for this long if he wasn't thinking marriage and then towards the end of it I was thinking about quitting my job to travel with him but I would need reassurance that he'd want a future with me...marriage and such. Well he broke up with me when I went into another crying session missing him so much over the phone. The first time he was gone it was for 7 months this next time it was going to be 4 months and I just didn't know how to handle it. I felt we didn't have time to bond and always felt like second fiddle to his career. I have since recognized that my behavior was immature and have started going to therapy to fix myself. I apologized for all my mistakes and said that I wanted to change so that I will be able to deal with these difficult circumstances but he said his heart and soul are in a different place and he needs to be alone. He says he loves and cares for me very much but that we need to seperate and when he is done with his latest assignment in 4 months we can talk but he needs to be seperated from me. He said sometime he wishes I would be with someone else so that I can see how great he is and also so that it might provoke him to want me more so he can get to the next step of marriage. I have stopped contact with him so that I will give him the gift of missing me. I want him back so bad and don't know what to do. He's a very good man and I don't think he would use me...so by him saying we can discuss it when he gets back does that mean he is considering it in the future? He was so good to me when he was here...the most dreamiest boyfriend and used to call me everyday from whatever country he was in to say he loved me. I want im back so bad.but I feel he is done with me in my gut. Do men really seperate that easily? He's a sensitive guy but he's also driven and very practical. Do you think he will miss me since we broke up over the phone and left so much unresolved? Thanks!