I would love to know what this girl means!

[robbieflynn]

Ok, so it starts like this. I work at Target, the coolest place in Tennessee, and I really enjoy it. I have been there for 3 months. One of my co-workers told me about a girl that was in his orientation and he showed me who she was, and he reminded me she has a boyfriend. I said hopefully I will get to at least meet her sometime. Im not one of those guys that steals girls from other guys, absolutely not. So the days went by, and I still hadnt met her. Me and Caleb, my coworker, always caught her looking over at us and just wondered.... I work at Food Avenue in Target, which those of you that shop there know that as the Pizza Hut Express, or the place where you get the "popcorn special for a dollar". She is a cashier, so she is close by. And the day finally came. She got in my line at Food Avenue and it was just weird. Later that day, I was going to get something to drink and I went through her line and bought a bottle of water. It all started right there. I kept going through her line and talking to her, and she kept coming to my line. This sounds crazy, I know. So we start to talk more and more and I become more interested in her. And I finally jumped out and told her how I felt. I knew she had a boyfriend, and I wasnt going to ask her for her number, and I sure wasnt going to just give her mine, because we just met! So I did it all 5th Grade style. I wrote her a note. I told her I kinda liked her, but I said Im just going to get over it because you have a boyfriend. After the note, things were awkward between me and her for about a week. Then one day while I was on my break, I told her that I was sorry for all the nonsense, and she turned around as I was walking off, walking away from her for good, and she gets a scrap piece of paper and writes her phone number down. She has a boyfriend! I thought, oh no, Im not going there. Thats a big turn off for me, a girl that messes around on her boyfriend. I have never cheated, and I have lots of people and proof to back that up. So I wouldnt want a girl to cheat on her boyfriend with me. She says that she wants to be friends, as she said later that night. We talked about everything and we eventually got into an argument, she called me a flirt, and said that she doest like it when guys flirt with girls and could care less about what they are doing. I assure you it was not this way with her. I flirted with her, because I was attracted to her. I liked her. But that one little thing was in my way, and so I told her I respect her and Im not going to impose on her relationship. And the arguing only got worse. We sounded not like we were dating, but sounded like we were married! I finally gave in and I said we are not getting anywhere and we are ruining this friendship so early. So I DEEPLY apologized and we got back on track as friends. We started to talk alot and all my coworkers started to catch on. Everyone started to catch on, except her of course. I was so confused! She kept giving me all the signs. She would always ask me when I get off, and when I told her, she would say dang and shrug, as if she wanted to hang out after work. And then she started to hang around me alot more at work and that really made some people's eyes open. One day she came over to see me at Food Avenue, and I was in the back cleaning some pans. I stopped and we chatted for awhile and I turned away with so much on my mind, so much meaning the only thing i was thinking about was her, and when I turned away, she said what's wrong? I told her nothing, as we both knew exactly what was wrong, although we weren't expressing it. I stopped and leaned on a counter and it was silent for a moment. She said what are you thinking about? Again, I said nothing, and it was something. It was her. I was thinking about her, even though she was right there! And I didnt sleep that night, because those thoughts were in my head all night after I left work. So we talked more and more, and I just kept my mouth shut. I know if I dont express my feelings to her, she will get upset because im not. If I do express my feelings, she plays the flirting card, and says im overstepping the friendship boundary. So I am in a hole! I cant get all this off my mind. I accept she has a boyfriend, but gosh, even one of her friends that works at Target also hinted at me a few things about her. So forget the boyfriend part for now. I want to know what this means! Is this worth the time. As of today, I really havent talked to her, because of some personal stuff she is dealing with. I will give her all the time she needs, all the space she needs, and I WILL NOT interfere with her relationship. I just dont understand. Everyone thinks it will happen eventually, but it so odd to say that because of the current circumstances. Im confused, and I really like her. I mean I really like her. If I didnt, I would have definately moved on now because she is not single. I need to know what even more people think. Everyone so far thinks the same as me, so now I want to hear more. Ive never felt like this about someone in my life! Help!!!!!