shredman00 Posted December 11, 2007 Share Posted December 11, 2007 I have a problem! There we go, i've said it. I've been taking ecstacy, eggs, x, adams, what ever you like to call them, all year now...constantly!! I find that taking it is soo good that i just cant stop. Its such and awesome feeling. I'm trying to get off them now, i havent found it too hard yet but the thing is, im going crazy. I'm constanty paranoid, im always thinking of what other people are thinking about me. It messes with my head. And the other thing is that i love to constantly smoke some weed and drink pretty heavily. I really dont know what all this is going to do to me in the long run. I feel like i've only got half a brain at the moment!! So i need to know if anyone else has this same problem and what you did to help yourself... Link to post Share on other sites
blind_otter Posted December 11, 2007 Share Posted December 11, 2007 I did a lot of ecstasy when I was in college. Easily over 1000 hits. There were serious longterm consequences, including paranoia and severe depression and anxiety. Ecstasy is not something that you want to mess with. I quit in 2001 and it has taken several years, psychiatric help and psychiatric medication for me to become stabilized. My personality has permanently changed. I advise that you seek out professional help from a psychiatrist. Be sure to be open about your past drug use and your current state of mind. Good luck to you. Link to post Share on other sites
Author shredman00 Posted December 12, 2007 Author Share Posted December 12, 2007 wow thanks heaps. I know how you feel, i havent quite done that much, probably half that but i cant definately see a difference in my behaviour. Im paranoid, depressed and hardly have the people skills i need to keep up a decent conversation. It's definately time to stop. Thanks for the heads up tho man. Link to post Share on other sites
polywog Posted December 13, 2007 Share Posted December 13, 2007 Hi shred, I just this past week gave up alcohol and began to go to AA meetings (after a lot of resistance, not feeling like that 12 step stuff etc. was for me). I don't do any other substances, so I haven't had to deal with that, and I've never done ex. But there are a lot of people in the meetings I attend that have had exactly what you are going through because they've also used ex and meth and you name it. And for me, the feeling at the meetings has been a relief.... being in a room full of others who are struggling with and even succeeding at getting well and healing themselves from that awful feeling of being controlled by something. That's the common thread between the people there... sometimes one of the only things in common, but it's powerfully reassuring, and has helped me. Not just to avoid drinking, but to feel like I'm not alone, which is an awful feeling. And I've also gotten a lot of advice about how to cope with all the crazy physical/psychological feelings that quitting has brought about. So, I'm just throwing that out there. It might be something for you to consider as an option while you're going through this crap, just to go to a meeting or two and see if you think it will help. Good luck, and keep posting. Link to post Share on other sites
blind_otter Posted December 13, 2007 Share Posted December 13, 2007 Hi shred, I just this past week gave up alcohol and began to go to AA meetings (after a lot of resistance, not feeling like that 12 step stuff etc. was for me). I don't do any other substances, so I haven't had to deal with that, and I've never done ex. But there are a lot of people in the meetings I attend that have had exactly what you are going through because they've also used ex and meth and you name it. And for me, the feeling at the meetings has been a relief.... being in a room full of others who are struggling with and even succeeding at getting well and healing themselves from that awful feeling of being controlled by something. That's the common thread between the people there... sometimes one of the only things in common, but it's powerfully reassuring, and has helped me. Not just to avoid drinking, but to feel like I'm not alone, which is an awful feeling. And I've also gotten a lot of advice about how to cope with all the crazy physical/psychological feelings that quitting has brought about. So, I'm just throwing that out there. It might be something for you to consider as an option while you're going through this crap, just to go to a meeting or two and see if you think it will help. Good luck, and keep posting. Congratulations on making that first step. I know from personal experience that it's really hard. Link to post Share on other sites
polywog Posted December 13, 2007 Share Posted December 13, 2007 Congratulations on making that first step. I know from personal experience that it's really hard. Thanx, Otter. Yeah, it was Really Hard, not so much giving up the alcohol, but admitting I needed to do something about it to move forward in my life. Especially because in my case I wasn't falling down, screwing up, blacking out, or any of that obvious stuff so I didn't think I "qualified". But I wasn't moving forward in my life, and it had a big role in that. So we'll see where it takes me.... It hasn't even been a week yet. At least I don't crave drinking at all. But I take zoloft, and I am having to readjust to how it works in my body without alcohol. It's unpleasant. Link to post Share on other sites
blind_otter Posted December 13, 2007 Share Posted December 13, 2007 Thanx, Otter. Yeah, it was Really Hard, not so much giving up the alcohol, but admitting I needed to do something about it to move forward in my life. Especially because in my case I wasn't falling down, screwing up, blacking out, or any of that obvious stuff so I didn't think I "qualified". But I wasn't moving forward in my life, and it had a big role in that. So we'll see where it takes me.... It hasn't even been a week yet. At least I don't crave drinking at all. But I take zoloft, and I am having to readjust to how it works in my body without alcohol. It's unpleasant. I think that, no matter how dependent you are on alcohol, when you stop there is always an adjustment period. Hell, when you regularly rely on ANY substance or activity to get you through, there will be an adjustment period when you stop. The zoloft issue is just icing on the cake. I remember when I quit drinking it took me a good 6 months before my brain healed enough for me to start making clear headed decisions and judgements. So go easy on yourself and remember - one day at a time. Link to post Share on other sites
polywog Posted December 13, 2007 Share Posted December 13, 2007 I think that, no matter how dependent you are on alcohol, when you stop there is always an adjustment period. Hell, when you regularly rely on ANY substance or activity to get you through, there will be an adjustment period when you stop. The zoloft issue is just icing on the cake. I remember when I quit drinking it took me a good 6 months before my brain healed enough for me to start making clear headed decisions and judgements. So go easy on yourself and remember - one day at a time. Thanks, otter! Congrats yourself on quitting. I've been very fortunate in that I've already connected with a few people I relate deeply to (another artist and a writer) one of whom also had the zoloft issue, so it's been an easier beginning than I expected. I suspect that once one decides to take the step, good stuff gets rolling for us on the higher plane. I have heard stories that point to this over and over since I started going to meetings. I feel like I've hijacked this thread, but hopefully, maybe not. It might be relevant to shred's concerns. Link to post Share on other sites
blind_otter Posted December 13, 2007 Share Posted December 13, 2007 If it was hyjacked, it was helpful. OT - I don't think anyone can get over excessive ecstasy use without the help of a licensed psychiatrist. Ecstasy messes with you brain chemistry big time, and IMO it takes at least a period of time on meds to re-regulate all those neurotransmitters that have gone haywire. This is just my opinion but I've known several people who suffered from extended ecstasy use, beyond just my own experience. Link to post Share on other sites
sb129 Posted December 13, 2007 Share Posted December 13, 2007 It doesn't even need to be extended use. I definitely think that E contributed to my period of depression a few years ago. There were a few things going on in my life at the time, but the drug use definitely didn't help. The highs are amazing, but the crashing lows are not worth the highs anymore IMO. Shredman, I agree with the other posters that you are going to need some professional help to help restore your brain chemistry. Good luck. Link to post Share on other sites
Jade 02 Posted December 15, 2007 Share Posted December 15, 2007 Please stop,alot of people love,and care about you,I'm sure. There is alot of help out there too,I found some help in AA. I quit drinking 3 years ago now,and you can do this too hun with your choice of drug. Good luck hun people here care Link to post Share on other sites
Jade 02 Posted December 16, 2007 Share Posted December 16, 2007 I know its hard I am sruggling myself,but we have to try right Shred? Link to post Share on other sites
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