HarryR Posted December 25, 2007 Share Posted December 25, 2007 Hi everyone, Ive been lurking the past few weeks read alot things I just did not realize about myself and the opposite sex,,still figuing a lot of things out about myself that I hadnt realized , about what makes me tick and why I act or have done the things Ive done to people I love, that i hadnt considered before now, my story, we were together for 6 1/2 years , there has been no cheating one either side , I hadnt been in good health ,hapened after we met about two years afterwards, Im a virgo so anyone that knows about that knows i can be crytical to say the least, When we met her it was like stars went off in my head, , and I know it was the same for her, one of those ya cant explain times wehn you meet someone, well, Im sorry i just cant finish this right now,I will post it later,,,,thanks anyway,for giving me a place to let it go, we have been broken up for two weeks now there no abuse or anything like that, she called me a couple days after NC she was drinking obviously and saying she was sorry , Im just not feeling lie finishing this right now , I didnt communicate very well , Im sooo slow on that part, I didnt communicate what I wanted to say, guess I havent heard what she has siad either,I will continue my story after the holidays, im just gonna go get wasted and let it go for now, I know m but I want to fell better if its only for a few hours, just cant finish it right now,..want to say merry Christmas to you all out there,,,,didnt mean to bum anyone out,,,,and Hope all of you Have a Merry Christmas , Laters Link to post Share on other sites
Bentodd Posted December 25, 2007 Share Posted December 25, 2007 Hey I know exactly how you are feeling, except yours is probally even more extreme. Six years compared to one. The exact thing happened when I was trying to write my story as well I couldn't finish it. Instead though I just copied it and put it on word ill post it later. You still love this girl and always will. There is not a perfect person in this world and that's the biggest misconception about love. Love isn't about finidng the perfect person for you, love is about trully caring for some one on a very deep level. And you two my friend are still in love. Link to post Share on other sites
Author HarryR Posted December 26, 2007 Author Share Posted December 26, 2007 Not sure why you would think so , I have no reason to think she does now.and have not heard from her except that night at 1am , saying she was sorry for hurting me. I thought giving her some time would help as she can be pretty stuborn at times , I also know I can not wait forever feeling this way.I dont think she has any thing left for me, and that hurt just typing the words Link to post Share on other sites
Author HarryR Posted December 27, 2007 Author Share Posted December 27, 2007 Sent her flowers and teddy bear with big ballons yesterday and today , ell this morning after receiving the second order of flowers she called but I was afraid to answer so I checked my email instead and didnt pick up, she sent two emails telling me thanks so much for the flowers and thought, second email the teddy bears and puppy were so cute said I had all the girls in her office ohhing and ahhing. Guess I will send more flowers for tomorrow. Link to post Share on other sites
sedgwick Posted December 27, 2007 Share Posted December 27, 2007 Don't go overboard with the flowers and such. Two days in a row is enough. Too much will seem creepy! Link to post Share on other sites
Author HarryR Posted December 27, 2007 Author Share Posted December 27, 2007 You were too late, by the time i read this had sent two dozen more, will stop dead in my tracks right now... Thanks Link to post Share on other sites
Author HarryR Posted December 27, 2007 Author Share Posted December 27, 2007 too late for the flowers now, that is ok, not the first time i went overboard, so what should do now, just wait it out, I did wake up with a new sence today though, been clenaing doing laundry etc and actually been feeling a bit better. first ime i ate in a week just trying to keep busy. Has a rough week and realized if I had a dollar for all the times i was stupid id be rich what a learning process its been. Link to post Share on other sites
Author HarryR Posted December 30, 2007 Author Share Posted December 30, 2007 Today she said she had paid part of the electric bills and gas, Im lost here, someone throw me a rope, I sent her an email she wont get till aftert the hoildays, that I am moving on as she is,this was the last email i will send, but whats up with her paying some of the bills, is that guilt? Or am I just a dummy,? Link to post Share on other sites
Author HarryR Posted December 30, 2007 Author Share Posted December 30, 2007 Guess I had a lot better person than i knew, Im seeing it, with every second or every day, what a ******* i have been, wow Link to post Share on other sites
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