BrianG Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 Okay this has been hands down the worst 3 months of my life. My girlfriend of 5 years breaks up with me (who I wanted to spend the rest of my life with) and moves out and I am stuck with a very high rent. I lose my job and just last week I get involved in a hit and run accident (i was the one that was hit) that totals my new car and leaves me with a concussion, dislocated shoulder and 4 fingers. I have no health insurance to pay my medical bills because of no job, no car. ridiculously high rent and struggling just to keep my head above water. When I thought I had hit rock bottom and there is no where to go but up. I get selected for jury duty today and I have to spend most of my 30th birthday tomorrow in court. I get out of court today and I find that the truck I have been borrowing to get around has been towed because the parking lot messed up and I had to pay $180 bucks to get my friends truck back and was told it was pointless to fight to get my money back. The only person that would make me feel better in times like this (my ex-gf) does not love me "that way" anymore and I have to be NC with her. I hate my life right now and since I dont have anyone to talk to, I needed to vent here. Ever since the break-up, every single aspect of my life has fallen apart and lately I just feel like giving up. I wont do it, but im absolutely miserable. Link to post Share on other sites
serendip Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 Brian cheer up dude...there's always tomorrow...there is always hope just think how strong of a person you will be if you can get through this ****e Link to post Share on other sites
bigmanpayne Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 i know how you feel. right now since one thing has gone bad it seems like all things have gone bad, but i try to smile through it and find things that do make me happy (like my children) and focus on those. things always get better. try to keep your head up. Link to post Share on other sites
melodymatters Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 Oh Brian, I am SO sorry !!! I had a period like that myself, except it was closer to a year ! break up, business loss, injury, investemnt loss etc... All I can say is it DOES get better, and that we are here for you. Keep posting ! melody Link to post Share on other sites
JustinWolf Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 Hey Brian, I've been reading about your threads for quite some time now. I am really sorry to hear what's going on with you. I don't know quite the right words to make everything seem alright, but it's not and I just want to wish the best for you, man. You deserve it, you've been so strong and I would really hate for you to let go now. Don't make any mistakes, I know it sounds good to talk to the ex and all but please talk to your friends instead, I know you can do it. Just be strong, hang in there. You're a great guy and just don't give up. Also, it's 3 months, you still have the rest of your life to be happy Link to post Share on other sites
Confused9 Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 Happy Birthday tomorrow. Just try and keep strong. It can only get better. Things WILL get better. I am not really religious but I like the saying, "God only give you what he/she knows you can handle". Or the good ole' what doesn't kill you only makes you stronger! Tomorrow is a new day! Link to post Share on other sites
sedgwick Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 You lost 6 fingers in the accident?!? Link to post Share on other sites
PinkRibbon Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 Wow! That is a whole lot on someone's plate for 3 months! You have to be pretty strong to handle all that. Imagine if you are handling all this that when it gets better you will be on cloud 9. Nothing should seem impossible after these 3 months. I do hope things get better. I would start with one area in my life such as my job and work on that one first. One thing off your plate could lighten the load by huge proportions. Good Luck! Link to post Share on other sites
Author BrianG Posted January 23, 2008 Author Share Posted January 23, 2008 thanks for the positivity everyone. Its hard for me to keep that miid set when i am doing all the right things in my life and all the wrong things keep happening to me. Sedgwick, funny because that is the street where my apartment is located. I dislocated 4 fingers and my shoulder and broke two fingers. I did not even mention in my post that two close family members died as well. I really am trying to be strong but I really dont know how much more i can take, it seems like i have a black cloud following me and I dont know why. I know I made plenty of mistakes with my ex, but I am in counseling and cognitive behavioral therapy, and volunteer at a terminal cancer ward. I know so many people in this world have it so much worse than me and that single thought is the only thing right now keeping me alive. My 30th birthday is tomorrow and I am so emotionally and physically drained that I dont even care if i even wake up for it. I have tried so hard to be strong and I am tired of it. I am tired of being sick and tired. I guess its just one of those bad rollercoaster days. Link to post Share on other sites
PinkRibbon Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 Happy Early Birthday!! You need to wake up to see what 30 feels like! Link to post Share on other sites
Author BrianG Posted January 23, 2008 Author Share Posted January 23, 2008 I dont even know what makes me happy anymore is one of the worst things. Things I previously enjoyed don't provide the same enjoyment or happiness anymore. I have been feeling more like a zombie just passing thru life instead of living it. One of my biggest stress relievers is my motorcycle, but with the weather being so bad here on the east coast, i have not been able to ride for a while. Also, I posted another thread earlier about this but the next day after the accident, my ex-gf called 3 months after breaking up with me to tell me that she wants to give back the diamond rind I bought her a few years ago because it upsets her to wear it or see it. Talk about adding insult to injury. Just rambling now but from what i have learned its best to get cry and get it out then to bottle it up. Thanks everyone for reading and helping out. Link to post Share on other sites
JustinWolf Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 It's definately better to cry it out then just hold it up inside of you. I would suggest you have a great birthday party, please do so. I also wish you a happy birthday and a wonderful life. I have somewhere about this theory of positivity, where someone who wants something pretends he already has it. Imagine always being happy because what you want of life, you think you already have it, your desires and your cravings for it are gone. You are totally smiling because there is nothing more you need and if you ever do, you'll think you already have them. With this thinking it actually causes you to be much happier and gives a positive energy all around you. I sort of believe it works. So just try it for yourself. Let yourself be positive and all the best Brian. Link to post Share on other sites
CalamitousJane Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 Brian, it's been six month of break-up pain for me, with none of the other losses, and I'm still struggling. I can't imagine how hard it must be for you right now. You will survive, I know. I read your posts and I can tell how honest and decent you are. You will find a way to get through this. I think there are a lot of us out her rooting for you. Wish we all could give you a big birthday hug. Link to post Share on other sites
k10k Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 Happy Birthday Brian I hope you feel a little better today and remember that you can only go up from here! It's been 3 and half months of hell for me too, but life is definitely not over and we won't feel like this forever, things change. You're still young.. so here's to new beginnings and finding that happiness once again. Link to post Share on other sites
bustertypsy Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 Brian,I am at 3 and a half months NC myself,and I can say this time has been very tough for me.I too was in a car accident but thankfully wasn't injured and it wasn't my fault and the insurance sorted me out.I thought I was having it pretty tough. After reading your post I now realise just how much worse things could have been.As they say,there is always someone else worse off than you.All I can say is I hope you can slowly piece your life together. Aim for one achievement and go get it.Then aim for another,slowly you will pick up the pieces.We all go through periods in our life that test us to the limits.This is your test and you're going to beat it. Start of by getting a cheaper place to live(maybe use this as your first achievement),sort out a new job.Then you will have a new foundation upon which to build.Slowly you will see your life coming back together. I am sure you are over the worst and better times are on there way. Happy Birthday Brian! Link to post Share on other sites
Confused9 Posted January 23, 2008 Share Posted January 23, 2008 Happy Birthday, Brian. Hope things are better today. My birthday is a week from today. Eeek. I am nervous it's going to be a really hard day. Link to post Share on other sites
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