Author richardcruz Posted February 1, 2008 Author Share Posted February 1, 2008 Well today was the my 7 day NC mark and I feel like it gets harder and harder as time passes. The longest I have gone NC with her is 15 days, which I obviously broke last time. I definently don't plan on calling her anymore because I know that there is nothing left that I can say or do. She also told me in our last conversation to never contact her again. I don't know why I miss her wheen she treated me so badly in the end. I asked my friend today If she thought she would ever call me later on down the line to at least say she was sorry for being so messed up but my friend said "the real question is why would you ever even want her back after what she did to you. She treated you awfully. Why would you even want to talk to her again." I understand exactly what she is saying. However, I'm having the hardest time accepting the fact that the girl that I shared good memories with for over a year no longer exists and has been replaced with the girl that has treated me like dirt and has no feelings. It almost doesn't feel real at times. I guess thoughts in your head still linger about how caring the person was at one point and you force yourself to seehow they really are even though your heart is still in disbelief. My mind has come to accept what she has done to me, but my heart still cant believe the person that was so connected to me and so caring wants nothing to do with me anymore and has said and done such awful things. My heart still wants to believe in the good in her heart..but my mind knows there is none. I what both my heart and my mind to be on the same page. I wonder if NC will finally get easier after a month or maybe two because right now, I really have to make an intense effort to avoid thinking of her and to keep myself from falling into depression. I just feel so screwed over and alone. Link to post Share on other sites
miami45uconn Posted February 1, 2008 Share Posted February 1, 2008 if you want to know why you still want her back even though she treats you horrible its simple you love her. My x is the same to me but I can't hate her only forgive for anything. It sucks I want to hate her and all but she can do anything to me and I'd still love her. I I'm just having to wait tip this lobe fades. I don't have any advice bc I am you on the e coast. We are in love alone bro Link to post Share on other sites
becauseofyou Posted February 1, 2008 Share Posted February 1, 2008 Hi Richard, Congrats on your promotion! That's a really good thing to focus on in order to help move on from this bad breakup. Well done on maintaining 7 days of NC as well. The longer you go NC and the more you focus on other aspects of your life, the sooner you will feel more in control of your emotions. Best of luck. Link to post Share on other sites
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