hayati Posted January 31, 2008 Share Posted January 31, 2008 She was a few years younger and she was still into the party scene. One night we just had a huge fight and that was it. We were done in a second and the next day I was trashing her name. I took it to a new level and I hated her for a bit. She wasn't perfect but I shoulda kept my laundry in the laundry room. I never once thought about taking her back. We both have a lot of pride. I got engaged about 2 yrs later to another girl but I ended that wanting this one back. Long storyyyyyy. I actually tried to get her back while I was still engaged. I'm scum I know. Anyways I ended it with the other girl then I left things alone. We had another round of fighting over something silly. I was trying to help her but she didn't take it as helping. She got defensive .......... round 2. Months passed and I sent her some flowers and we talked for hours, but she was over everything, the past was the past. We had such a nice chat and I didn't really go into details about wanting her back that nite. The next day I emailed her and she wrote back telling me to find someone better than her etc. blah blah blah. So I wrote her back thanking her for telling me what I already knew etc, and that I had closure. Whatever------time flew and we did talk about 3 or 4 times but I always initiated it and it was brief emails. Months passed and we didn't talk so I emailed her a hi whats up. I got nothing. A week passed and I was kinda annoyed so I called her and left her a msg. Within 10 mins I got an email sayin she was busy sorry she missed my cell. But she didnt even ask how I was! So I left that.......a month later or so i'm in her city which is hours away by plane. The first day I run into her at a mall. Shes with her mom im with my cousins and we stop and stare and freeze..........then she runs into a store. Pretty much I tried to contact four or 5 times after that sight, telling her how I felt too, but I got not a reply........I even emailed her old pics of us that I found the other day........I guess it was a last resort for me. I just wish she could say get lost. I know she told me last year that the past is the past and I guess I dont deserve anything else from her. She doesnt owe me, but I wish shed tell me stay away jerk, or something.........silence is hard, I know what silence means, dont get me wrong........but she wont give me anything so I know I have to move on. Inside I always feel that she's hiding her feelings but whatever Link to post Share on other sites
Robert7x Posted January 31, 2008 Share Posted January 31, 2008 sad story bud... I was hoping for better ending but I guess its just not meant to be. You should stop chasing something that doesnt want to be with you. Go on with your life buddy and move on. Leave the past behind... Otherwise, you'll wake up one day and realized you wasted half of your life on chasing something that is not meant to be yours. Link to post Share on other sites
Author hayati Posted January 31, 2008 Author Share Posted January 31, 2008 A sad story indeed and ur right, find someone who does care. I just wish girls would let us in. They always put walls up! Link to post Share on other sites
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