SomewhereWandering Posted February 3, 2008 Share Posted February 3, 2008 This may turn in to a long and drawn out post. Basically, I am looking for someone to tell me what my issues are that I can't see. The man that I am posting about is now my best friend. He has previsouly been an aquaintance of me and an ex, and on-again-off-again boyfriend as recently as 2/3 months ago. If I had to define our past I would say that we have officially probably broken up twice, but every once in awhile we go through periods of crossing the boundaries of "just friends." So to the problem, I have always been the one to end the relationship and always been the one hindering getting into anything serious when we aren't together. I go through periods of honestly being "in love" with him, but then again I go through periods where I can't see him as more than a friend to any extent. My reason for writing is because of this. Right now I am in a period where I can't stop thinking about him and a period where he makes me excited/tingley. I feel as though I can't just go with the flow at this point because of our past and the last thing I want to do is hurt him again and/or lead him on when I am not 100% sure. I respect him for everything that he is. Lastly, the issues at times like this that I attempt to remind myself of are the reasons that we are not together. He has a daughter, whom I enjoy and adore immensely, and an ex-wife whom I feels as though she can take advantage of him. Also, I am 6 years younger than he and definitely have different career aspirations and educations (me being an educated professional). There are of course some other things that annoy me, but those are the biggies that actually make a difference in the long run. So, in case you can't remember, I am looking for someone to tell me what my issues are that I can't see. Thanks in advance for your thoughts. If you have any questions I will be happy to reply. Link to post Share on other sites
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