ses623 Posted February 5, 2008 Share Posted February 5, 2008 It's been quite a while since I've posted here...last login was over 2 years ago...a lot has changed for me over those two years as I look back on my previous posts . Anyways, been in quite a few relationships since then, lost my virginity, started college, met lots of new people, partied like no other..you know the usual stuff...lol. Well I am now single again, and it's been that way for about 4 months. I'm starting to find myself in a sense of loneliness and wanting another relationship. Yeah, being single is fun and all, chasing women/skin hounding, drinking and partying with buddies, and basically all the freedom that you could ever want. Sure it's a blast doing all of that stuff, but after a while I start to miss the feeling that I get when I'm with a girl that I really like..I'm sure you all know the feeling I'm talking about. I'm not desperate either. Humans need companionship, and thats what I miss. Honestly, I really don't have any time of the day to hang around and dwell on the subject either...so it's not like I don't have anything better to do with my time. I have an insanely busy life, 2 jobs, going to school full time as an Electrical Engineering major, weight lifting, work around the house and on my vehicles...etc. Now the problem is that I feel that I have been kind of "rejective" toward relationships. I really don't know how to explain it. It's like a sub-conscious thought or something thats really kind of screwing me up. I do want to get into another relationship but I think that's whats really stopping me. I have many many good looking chick friends with good personalities that I know I could have a shot with. Heres a bit about my last relationship. I met this girl through a co-worker over the summer, she was absolutely gorgeous, and had an amazing personality. We hit it off very well in the beginning, it was almost like I clicked with her from the moment we had met. Things progressed as fast as we began to fall for each other. We could tell from the look in each others eyes, that look that says "I love you", and through that look we were practically begging one another to say it. We finally said it to each other one night, and it was probably one of the greatest nights of my life. I can honestly say she was my first love. To cut the story short, we broke up about a month or so after that, and to be honest, I was really heart broken. I poured my heart out to this girl and with a few sentences it felt as if she had tore it to shreds. It was tough to deal with, but I'm over it. Whats past is past. But I think this plays a major role with how I perceive things now. This isn't the first time I've been hurt either. Before you go and say that I'm a total pushover, well I'm far from that. I am an ******* sometimes, I don't let people boss me around, and I'm not afraid to tell anyone how it is...lol. The way I look at it, we are all humans, so we are all equal and on the same level. I really can't figure out what the problem is or how to solve it. I just need some input/advice to help me to get over this little hump. I know it's long, but if you read all of that Thanks! Link to post Share on other sites
Mary3 Posted February 5, 2008 Share Posted February 5, 2008 I don't see where you have a * problem *. Your letter could have been typed by me.( lol ) After a painful breakup decided I would not fall so easily next time so I would not get hurt and learned all about myself . Thats what I did with the last 2 years (besides of course going out on lots of dates and getting to know different people.) This is what you have done . You learned you LOVED ( finally ) all that single could mean. You learned how to be stronger and parts of you want to find someone and the other part of you likes to run your own life I do understand what you mean when you say you miss the companionship and the relationship aspects too.... Sure, it can be lonely . Honestly about 90% of the time I love coming home to my own home , no drama , and really love being able to do whatever I want to , if that means staying out til 4 am or laying around all day doing absolutely nothing. Relationships have their upside too . I think I have been single for so long now ( and loving it ) that to have a relationship might be a pain because it involves 2 people's lives now. I think I would go out with someone I really liked for a longgggggggggg time before making it very serious. Get to know that person. 3 months , 6 months , valuable learning time. You have to love yourself , feel comfortable alone and enjoy most of your life. If you feel too lonely , you might be vulnerable and fill that space with the wrong person and be miserable. Whatever your choice is ,single or a relationship, Good Luck Link to post Share on other sites
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