broke nc and same social setting with ex, its a lot to deal with

[Lucky555]

It had been 10 days i contacted him then i said enough...it went another 16 days and i contact him...i was also inclined to send a happy valentines day STUPID STUPID ME! Seriously what is wrong with me why can't i just stop. I am so sad its so pathetic. I'm the one hanging on.

 

Here is i have a problem all my friends say it your too nice. I know that he has been down lately so i send him a happy valentines day because i feel bad but the thing is he doesn't care about me. I do this with a lot of ppl not just him. I am the people pleaser person. ITs not that i desire to find people feeling bad someone how i am sympathetic towards them. So now with the guy that i want to get out of my life completely i feel bad for him but still it burns me deep down that i would give him the time of day.

 

So here is the new plan i need to delete him from my aim. So i don't contact him but i sent him a happy valentines day which will be sent on the 14th and its too late to cancel it now! Which is just happy v-day its nothing to do with love. Its friendly as a friend and the fact is i need to stop trying to be friends with him. in 16 days he never contacted me and i do but its still the early year.

 

Here is my theory i dont hate anyone and as much as i try not to hate but i do dislike him and love him at the same time. TWISTED. I luv him when i think of things that are good times that we have had . I dislike him for turning his back on me so to speak and letting me believe he came back for the right reasons.

 

If any of you have time to read this and know what the heck is going on tell me. Yeah i need to suck it up and move on i am angry at myself for contacting him when i was doing so well. This was triggered by a phone call from a mutal friend that i know who wants us all to hang out in which I feel like i want to be on good terms so we are able to be in the same social setting. I just don't want waves. This is what it comes down to, i feel like its an obligation to be his friend because I don't want other friends to think that i am stuck up. He and I only know what happened and i don't want that influencing my other friendships!! Same social group. i feel better

[matt367]

Dont sweat it we all make mistakes. just stick to nc now you cant change that valentines day greeting so just go with it. its normal to feel the way your feeling im dreading valentines day because i may break nc which i really dont want to do. Being nice isnt a bad thing just make sure the people your nice to deserve it! definitley go nc and dont give him a 2nd thought because he doesnt care about you so why think about someone who doesnt care for you? just keep preoccupied and good luck.

[Lucky555]

Thanks a lot! I deleted him from my aim. I just don't like knowing that i will see him again in my lifetime. I don't want to bail on my other friends though but being NC will make me that much stronger to deal with it when that day comes.

[Haohmaru]

Delete him from your AIM, yahoo, myspace, facebook, yearbook, cell phone, Outlook, PalTalk, text list, ECard, NVite, and tell your teacher to expel him from school.

 

I think it actually works out because it's the only way to grow. And who knows what can happen in the future! I'm NCing my ex, who is a wonderful person, so I can heal and then maybe we can be close friends or something. Who knows. Gotta give time a chance.

[dfreeman]

Dont sweat it we all make mistakes. just stick to nc now you cant change that valentines day greeting so just go with it. its normal to feel the way your feeling im dreading valentines day because i may break nc which i really dont want to do. Being nice isnt a bad thing just make sure the people your nice to deserve it! definitley go nc and dont give him a 2nd thought because he doesnt care about you so why think about someone who doesnt care for you? just keep preoccupied and good luck.

 

Hi Matt,

 

Just a friendly reminder from the Val Day NC police here ...

 

DON'T BREAK NC ON FEB 14th!