She wants me back!

[LoserAtLove]

If you read my other post. Is this my fault? Can you drive someone to cheat?

 

You know what happened. I've been doing pretty good about the nc. I went. like a week in a half without a single bit of contact. Just one message really in 2 weeks. That was my response to a question she had about me messing up her myspace account. Which I didn't do this time. Although I did schedule for it to be deleted last time. . But on sunday cause it was 4am and i was drunk at a bar. I sent her a few texts basically just asking how and why she did what she did to me. I started it off with a really sweet message I saved in my phone that she sent me back in Jan. (I know I should delete it). "Ur a great kisser And an even better lover in bed, sex is the best with u. I just wanted to tell u because I don't usally get a chance to babe." So I forwarded her that message at 4am asking if it was bs. Saying terrible things like I was feeling suicidal and can't go on without her. Sunday comes and goes no answer. Finally monday i wake up and she leaves me a message saying that she is really sorry about what happened. She heard this chris brown song called Damage and made her realize what she did and how much she hurt me. I don't reply answer nothing.

 

A few hours ago she sent me a text asking. "Did you ever want to have lunch with me again? Its just by my job there's a really good deli u would love it. I would treat u. Just to be nice 1 day. is up to u." I wrote back that I can't. She writes "Why? U don't want to...I'll leave u be. just wanted to be an adult and make u understand that I could never hate u or not care for u. I'm not like u." I'll save all the details cause i don't want to bore everyone with another novel. But we get going back and forth. I made it perfectly clear that I didn't want to meet her. (Although a part of me of course does). That by doing what she did and lying to me about it we where done. She insisted that she missed me and wanted to get back together. I explained that she had issuses with me being so "controlling" about her not having guy friends. About me not trusting her. I said. How could that possibly improve now. I was kind of mean about it, but I told her im very hurt. She called herself a slut to a friend for what she did I agreed. I also pointed to the fact that she just sent her new bf a little kissy message on myspace. How would he feel right now if it is her bf that she wants to get back together with me. The dude is 19. I was 19 when I had my first heartbreak. Now no more replies. Is it wrong to feel closure and happy that she wants me back. Thanks to you guys. I really feel like I made the right decision and no matter how much I do miss her. I won't go back. Its not worth it. I wasn't perfect im still not. But, I won't play the fool this time.

 

[Siphon9a]

If you read my other post. Is this my fault? Can you drive someone to cheat?

 

You know what happened. I've been doing pretty good about the nc. I went. like a week in a half without a single bit of contact. Just one message really in 2 weeks. That was my response to a question she had about me messing up her myspace account. Which I didn't do this time. Although I did schedule for it to be deleted last time. . But on sunday cause it was 4am and i was drunk at a bar. I sent her a few texts basically just asking how and why she did what she did to me. I started it off with a really sweet message I saved in my phone that she sent me back in Jan. (I know I should delete it). "Ur a great kisser And an even better lover in bed, sex is the best with u. I just wanted to tell u because I don't usally get a chance to babe." So I forwarded her that message at 4am asking if it was bs. Saying terrible things like I was feeling suicidal and can't go on without her. Sunday comes and goes no answer. Finally monday i wake up and she leaves me a message saying that she is really sorry about what happened. She heard this chris brown song called Damage and made her realize what she did and how much she hurt me. I don't reply answer nothing.

 

A few hours ago she sent me a text asking. "Did you ever want to have lunch with me again? Its just by my job there's a really good deli u would love it. I would treat u. Just to be nice 1 day. is up to u." I wrote back that I can't. She writes "Why? U don't want to...I'll leave u be. just wanted to be an adult and make u understand that I could never hate u or not care for u. I'm not like u." I'll save all the details cause i don't want to bore everyone with another novel. But we get going back and forth. I made it perfectly clear that I didn't want to meet her. (Although a part of me of course does). That by doing what she did and lying to me about it we where done. She insisted that she missed me and wanted to get back together. I explained that she had issuses with me being so "controlling" about her not having guy friends. About me not trusting her. I said. How could that possibly improve now. I was kind of mean about it, but I told her im very hurt. She called herself a slut to a friend for what she did I agreed. I also pointed to the fact that she just sent her new bf a little kissy message on myspace. How would he feel right now if it is her bf that she wants to get back together with me. The dude is 19. I was 19 when I had my first heartbreak. Now no more replies. Is it wrong to feel closure and happy that she wants me back. Thanks to you guys. I really feel like I made the right decision and no matter how much I do miss her. I won't go back. Its not worth it. I wasn't perfect im still not. But, I won't play the fool this time.

 

 

Props to you man! I had been keeping up with your other posting you had and can say you made the right decision. That's got to be a good feeling to know your past it all and feel good about it. The shoe is on the other foot now and she will have to live with the mistakes she made. Your right none of us are perfect and at some point all can be forgiven. Trouble is it may be forgive and forget but it can also change the scheme of things cause life can never go back and be the same after certain things happen. That's the consequences of life. Glad to hear your feeling better about it all.

[LoserAtLove]

Thanks man. Trying to keep strong and see past this point in my life.