funny how it seems we hardly offend ourselves

[user777]

Here is text of a thread that I posted in a forum on a sitecalled Matchdoctor. The site isn't regulated very well and there are a lot of personal attacks. It's a big problem there. The thread didn't get very far there because there was an uproar over it by users who took offense. So in a cruel twist of fate they went on the attack against me.

 

So I'm posting it here to see what people think who won't take it so personally.

 

" I got some rest away from the fray ,and came back renewed and with a new attitude.

 

But, it was really scary what I found when I returned to the thread. People were still angry, and they were still so full of bitterness, and resentment that they were still grinding the same axe that they were days, months, years ago. And the most tragic thing about it was that they were trying to blame me for their behavior. I wondered how it could be that I felt refreshed, unstressed, and in good spirits. Yet, they seemed suspended in one fixed loop of negative emotions. I also wonder how they could be so oblivious to how their behavior looked to others reading their words. Or, was I the only one, I thought, that was afflicted with this perverse strain of deja vu.

 

It seems to me that they were admitting to the world that they hate so much that they, themselves, can't even accept it. They are admitting that they hate themselves; and hate the world. I don't think that even they could seriously think they were presenting a credible story that I'm to blame for their rage; and, I alone was the sole reason they were upset.

 

It must be the epitome of despair to have to come to a place day after day and admit defeat of self, and loss of any respect for one self because they've given it all to me".

Edited March 26, 2008 by user777
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