janjan Posted April 26, 2009 Share Posted April 26, 2009 nearly 4 months now, and never going back Link to post Share on other sites
Cora Posted April 26, 2009 Share Posted April 26, 2009 2 months and 6 days of NC Link to post Share on other sites
openbook08 Posted April 26, 2009 Share Posted April 26, 2009 coming up on 6months..... woah Link to post Share on other sites
PinkRibbon Posted April 26, 2009 Share Posted April 26, 2009 Well, I did go THREE weeks when we 1st broke-up (5 weeks ago) ... I change both my phone #'s, but not my email ... he emailed me 2 weeks ago ... I did NOT reply for 8 days (was sooo PROUD of myself) BUT then broke down & called (with # blocked) and ever since I seriously F'ed up!!!! We've been texting, talking & I even saw him & then SLEPT with him on Sat!!! I HATED myself, cried the whole next day! Then he called on Monday saying he still loves me, etc., ... SAYS it, but where's the ACTIONS!!?? A bit of background ... He broke-up with me after 7 months, an engagement & a previous break (more like IGNORED me & vanished)!! I'm 44 & have been through a divorce (after 15 year marriage, 3 years ago) BUT have NEVER felt like this before ... almost feel addicted to him & his touch!!?? I'm too old & WISE for this S**T, but yet still ... acting as if I'm an idiot school-girl!!!? I think I SUCK at NC!!!?? If I have to change our # one more time my daughter will kill me! LOL! But it's as if the only way I can escape his 'spell' on me!!!? ANY THOUGHTS/SUGGESTIONS!?? Thank you ... Twicebitten I know how you feel I am a 40 year old woman I don't nee this sh** from a grown man! Link to post Share on other sites
Montclair0011 Posted April 26, 2009 Share Posted April 26, 2009 7 Weeks, 4 days (53 days). Still miserable and wishing for the impossible. Trying to date again and making a mess of it. Not sure I'm ready but with a history of unrequited love, I don't want to waste away what life I have left devoted to someone who does not want me (or can not change his situation to be with me--just in case he does--but I should not be thinking about that--I should not be caring what he thinks even though I still do). And so I continue NC. . . . Link to post Share on other sites
sillyheart Posted April 27, 2009 Share Posted April 27, 2009 I'm on day ONE. We've been broken up for 1 month now. I wasn't aware to implement the NC rule, until I found this site yesterday and began reading other's posts. I poured all my heart out to him on Saturday with two emails. This feels horrible. I'm sad, then angry, then a bit happy but that doesn't last too long. I'm also wondering if anyone on here has experience with antideppressants and if those work at all? I think I may need some, because I usually can't eat, or want to get out of bed. It's like I want to stay asleep until I don't feel this pain anymore. Well, wish me luck on more NC days to come. I hope I can stick to it. Link to post Share on other sites
sugarmomma Posted April 27, 2009 Share Posted April 27, 2009 6 days since the last text and I miss him so much. Just want to see his face and touch his hair, see his smile, kiss his lips, just hear his voice and ask how his day went. :love:UUGGGGHHHH. This is so hard. Link to post Share on other sites
vessv6l Posted April 27, 2009 Share Posted April 27, 2009 3 weeks with no verbal contact, been very little email contact but not lately so ill say 3 weeks. Still want to abuse the **** out of her though, so i know im not there yet Link to post Share on other sites
PinkRibbon Posted April 27, 2009 Share Posted April 27, 2009 Lets say today is day 1 for me. I broke NC last night and sent him a nice email telling him I am done crying, done waiting and how he used me and my daughter and lied to us both. No concern for her feelings and how she felt about him. Just threw both of us away. For what a lie?? None of this would have happend if you hadn't lied and carried that lie on for a year. I also said I will lose his email and phone (which after I sent the letter i deleted everything i had on my phone and computer. Threw all pictures in the trash and took it to the dumpster and deleted pictures on disc.) He will never hear from me again but I told him the good part is I will forget about him, I will get over him, and I will get better and have had better but he on the other hand will never got someone as good as me. Boohyah! Then I said I hate him and hope he drops froggin dead. I said I don't expect a reply because he wasn't man enough to talk to me about this situation and work through something so petty. Email and number gone! I know it was petty and childish but I feel a million times better. I still hurt but I know I am done groveling and begging someone who has looked me in the face and lied to me. I don't need a liar. Now the hurt will take time and the trust for someone may never happen but I am tired of begging someone to be with me. Especially a short, fat, red head man boobs someone. I am a great woman and deserve to be treated as so. Link to post Share on other sites
briannajill Posted April 28, 2009 Share Posted April 28, 2009 Today is day three. We broke up in December, but we were trying to be friends. However, on Saturday he told me I was insane and needed to be committed. That was the last straw for me. If I ever see him again, it won't be pretty. Link to post Share on other sites
PinkRibbon Posted April 28, 2009 Share Posted April 28, 2009 Insane??? Whoa. Oh yea day 2 of me not emailing or texting. I am a dork sometimes and want the impossible. Someone thump me on the head to wake me up to reality. No is no is no. Link to post Share on other sites
fabulous_chk Posted April 29, 2009 Share Posted April 29, 2009 back to day 0. i just broke my 12 day NC for one stupid manipulating "me and the dog misses you" email. now i have butterflies in my stomach, anxious, wanna throw up- i don't need this cr*p. Link to post Share on other sites
PinkRibbon Posted April 30, 2009 Share Posted April 30, 2009 Day 4 of being in NC and day 18 of being in the 7th circle of Hell. Link to post Share on other sites
Peter_pan Posted April 30, 2009 Share Posted April 30, 2009 1 year 5 months 4 months NC since last hiccup Link to post Share on other sites
sugarmomma Posted May 1, 2009 Share Posted May 1, 2009 10 days NC. When will the hell end???? 21 days since I actually saw his beautiful face. I had to quit him because he has a R already. What was I thinking? Need to work on meself. Link to post Share on other sites
PinkRibbon Posted May 1, 2009 Share Posted May 1, 2009 5 days and moved to the 8th circle of hell. Hell doesn't end it just gets more bearable. Circles away from the break up day which is the center of hell. Link to post Share on other sites
BackonTrack2 Posted May 2, 2009 Share Posted May 2, 2009 1 year and 1 month. almost feels as if it never happen, like it was a dream, like i imagined it. Link to post Share on other sites
JanaJ Posted May 2, 2009 Share Posted May 2, 2009 49. I can't remember if this is the weekend she has her daughter or not. I actually forgot something. Must be a good sign. Hopefully I'll forget more each day. You mean gives birth to her daughter??? That's not a good time to be NC Link to post Share on other sites
Tizzy Posted May 3, 2009 Share Posted May 3, 2009 3 days since our break up, 3 days NC. I really want him to call me or text me but i seriously doubt that will happen. I've been thinking of texting him but honestly don't see the point. So I'm hanging in there :-( Link to post Share on other sites
notalone Posted May 3, 2009 Share Posted May 3, 2009 Exactly two months today since the break up. two months of NC as well. This is hell itself. Link to post Share on other sites
sillyheart Posted May 3, 2009 Share Posted May 3, 2009 8 Days today. I hate him. Then later on I will be crying. Link to post Share on other sites
sillyheart Posted May 3, 2009 Share Posted May 3, 2009 8 days today. I hate him. Then later on, I will be crying because of how much he has hurt me without any regard for my or our children's feelings. Link to post Share on other sites
PinkRibbon Posted May 4, 2009 Share Posted May 4, 2009 7 days since I last email and I am really beginning to think that being in a realtionship sucks. Link to post Share on other sites
WhyYesThankYou Posted May 5, 2009 Share Posted May 5, 2009 I just counted, and it's only been 11 days. Huh. I thought it'd been longer. It sure feels like longer..... He last emailed me 9 days ago, and I didn't reply. Yay me. I have written a note to myself, which I carry with me everywhere, about my reasons not to contact him. This is helpful in moments of weakness. However, I'm only counting "NC" as not actively visiting/seeing/calling/texting/emailing him. I am still e-stalking him, and I get really annoyed with the cybertrail of him hooking up with 19 year old sluts. I also had a chuckle last night listening to his motorbike cut out repeatedly when he was trying to leave one of his chicks' house. Hahahahaha. Link to post Share on other sites
calculus Posted May 6, 2009 Share Posted May 6, 2009 Hmmm. It's been at least 5 months since I've logged into here and it's a little more than 5 months of NC. I could care less now. I look back and wonder why I spent so much energy being depressed and wondering what happened. I've moved on. I still think about her from time to time, but not "in that way" anymore. It makes much easier to log back into facebook and myspace too now that she deleted me from both during the time I took a break from those social networking sites. Link to post Share on other sites
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