tokool2 Posted May 27, 2008 Share Posted May 27, 2008 ok. im a 26 year old male. Ive been diagnosed with clincal depression. Im nervous and selfcontious with what people think about me, or maybe paranoid. I moved back home with parents a year ago. money issues. ive had i weird strick upbringing. parents way to over protective. im unsure of my self. i keep ruinning friendships, and getting dumped. (actually i havent been able to date a girl for more than a month). i want to end my life because it feels like it never began, and that its not going to. Im always trying, but keep failing. i dont know what to do. a huge part of me wants to leave this town i grew up in, just to see if i can find my self. parents are going to put a guilt trip on me if i do, so that means i have to lie and sneak away. alot of the time i lie to them or just really quite with them, only because i know that they will judge me on my actions. still dont know what to do. want to exit earth. im runnin out of options Link to post Share on other sites
Krisa Posted May 27, 2008 Share Posted May 27, 2008 I'm sorry you are going through such hard times. Are you in any kind of counseling?? are you on any medications to help you deal with your depression and nervousness?? I know dating may seem high priority to you...but you need to be happy with the way you are before getting involved with someone. What do you like to do? hobbies? What are you good at? What do you do job wise? Have you tried talking to your parents to tell them how they make you feel? If they knew how they were making you feel, they may stop. You can't give up...We have so much to live for... Link to post Share on other sites
Author tokool2 Posted May 30, 2008 Author Share Posted May 30, 2008 yeah, when i was a teenager i really got into music and played in bands till i was 24. i still play every now and then, but pressures of work and paying bills and stuff kinda takes away the time and fun of it. i work at a wharehouse, but hate it. i only got this job just so i can do music on the side. i been at my job for five years, and it sucks. im going to school and almost have my a.a. but i still dont know what to do after, or what degree to pursue. i was going to counsiling for awhile but stopped. ive been thinking about going back. i dont want to go on meds only because if i quit my job ill lose my health insurance and not be able to stay on them. like most people im afraid of death. there are times were im happy and comfortable, but i have extremes. manicdepression i guess you can say. its just that when im down it can get really bad. i dont know im still thinking about leaving. oh yeah im sure ive had many talks with the folks but they dont seem to listen Link to post Share on other sites
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