my boyfriends away for the summer

[chanelcouture15]

so my boyfriend left the country for 6 weeks to learn a differant language. I miss him soo much. the first couple nights i cried myself to sleep. i felt heartbroken, like someone just stabbed me in the heart. during the day, id try to keep busy and do something productive with my time, but it still felt wierd. i felt uncomfortable, inside i was ok and just fine, but something just still didnt feel right. i felt out of place, and lonely even though i wasnt really alone. it felt like my life was alright, and dont get me wrong i love my life right now, but something was not in its right place. im generally a strong person and can cope with things easily, but i dont know this time i just kinda broke down and cried like a baby. i miss him so much, its like i temporarily lost my bestfriend, my boyfriend, my love, and my heart. i havent talked to him since he left, which was a week from today. i think hes been trying to call me from a phone card because ive been getting these strange calls on my cellphone and house phone and one of the numbers comes up as "J2 global communications" and everytime hes called ive missed them! i was so mad that i missed them, but it gave me relief that maybe i ran through his mind atleast once. i think im a little bit scared that when he gets back things wont be the same. im scared that he'll be different, that i'll be different, and that our love wont be the same. i dont know maybe thats just my nerves, we coud go back to the way it was, or it could get better, but im scared of the outcome. i know my boyfriend pretty well since we were good/best friends even before we started going out to know that he wouldnt do anything that would hurt me, but doubt still runs through my mind. i decided that i wouldnt cheat on him, and i doubt i will like anyone while hes gone because i know a good thing when it comes and i just need to wait for him to come back home. yeah so thats my story. i was just wondering if some people who have gone through the same thing or can relate could give me some advice on how to cope. i decided that im just gonna make myself busy this summer, work-out a lot more, make some money, do things for myself that i never got to do, hang out with girlfriends, and have fun. it feels kind of wierd having fun without my boyfriend here, i feel sort of bad in a way, but im sure he's having so much fun on his trip. so please write back to this! THANKS!

[konfuzd]

You sound very co-dependant. Do you have friends outside of your boyfriend? It will probably be good for you to have some time away to get a life of your own.

 

Many people on here go months or years without seeing their SO. I, personally go from 1-4 months without seeing him, and our visits are usually for a few days at a time. Whining and complaining about it just makes it worse.

 

I don't sit at home and cry because he's gone. I live life, go out with friends, enjoy my hobbies etc... Don't waste your summer just because he's gone. 6 weeks is really not that long.