sultry33 Posted July 23, 2008 Share Posted July 23, 2008 well i have made it a month.. excluding one plain email thanking him for my cats documents. im feeling quite weak atm.. keep thinking maybe i could contact him now just to say hi.. i miss him but im no longer desperatly wanting him.. i just miss the friend i had in him.. miss the cuddles too. I had a daydream today that in a few yrs time i contacted him dont really know where im at or what im actually saying.. but id love to just email him.. i wont do it though, i cannot be rejected.. im not lacking attention or sitting around being sad infact im doing really well.. business has picked up big time too.. im just so sad that my best friend is gone:sick: anyone else feel this? x Link to post Share on other sites
confused and broken Posted July 23, 2008 Share Posted July 23, 2008 well i have made it a month.. excluding one plain email thanking him for my cats documents. im feeling quite weak atm.. keep thinking maybe i could contact him now just to say hi.. i miss him but im no longer desperatly wanting him.. i just miss the friend i had in him.. miss the cuddles too. I had a daydream today that in a few yrs time i contacted him dont really know where im at or what im actually saying.. but id love to just email him.. i wont do it though, i cannot be rejected.. im not lacking attention or sitting around being sad infact im doing really well.. business has picked up big time too.. im just so sad that my best friend is gone:sick: anyone else feel this? x You took the words right out of my mouth....that is exactly, exactly how I feel.. The part I miss the most is my best friend and more than anything I just want to say hi, but I know it's the wrong thing to do Link to post Share on other sites
confused and broken Posted July 23, 2008 Share Posted July 23, 2008 NC is soo hard all I want to know is when will it stop hurting and when will I no longer have that overpowering urge for contact........ I have been through other break ups and it does come but its hard to keep that in mind or believe in that day Link to post Share on other sites
Author sultry33 Posted July 23, 2008 Author Share Posted July 23, 2008 yeah, i guess im waiting for the day when i could contact him and it would be ok.. or the day when he contacts me.. ive always been the person to end a relationship so for me its my 1st time having this experience.. in the past yea id get a text.. calls from exs but i was ok with it as id left the relationship.. with him i just cannot put him on that level.. there was prev 2 guys that i had deep kind off love feelings for.. my 1st love, which i had daughter with.. was bad rs and very violent abusive an controlling.. so i ended it.. he would return every couple of months for 2 yrs:eek: id finally had enough as we had a cant live together / cant live apart rs.. but i found out he was looking for me for 10yrs:love: i moved alot.. didnt sign electrol roll or anything.. he went to my home town old address 6 yrs after the last time i saw him.. now i dont like him that much.. crazy huh the other guy was just great.. but i couldnt stay faithful as he was almost incompetent and although i trully liked him loads i needed the other part. i used to text/ talk to him often after we broke up.. i was really into him.. now my ex.. who i do love .. but cannot seem to get out of my head.. im staying away from i find it right and wrong.. right because we are both hurt.. right because we cannot be together.. and also because he left so does not want me.. wrong because we was best friends.. both say we miss each other.. wrong because it feels wrong. im 37.. been in somekind of relationship since i was 13.. yeap was long term then too, and i still cant make head or tail of it;) Link to post Share on other sites
Peter_pan Posted July 23, 2008 Share Posted July 23, 2008 5 months of nc has got me to the otherside. everyone is different though. i sometimes still think of her but not as much as i used to. its a great feeling. i love being hung up on another girl Link to post Share on other sites
Author sultry33 Posted July 23, 2008 Author Share Posted July 23, 2008 5 months of nc has got me to the otherside. everyone is different though. i sometimes still think of her but not as much as i used to. its a great feeling. i love being hung up on another girl hi peter, thats great:bunny: i seem to run in other direction when someone wants to get too close.. there is a really sweet guy whom i have met but honestly he is bit of work.. he wants me to call/text an i really cant be bothered.. sounds bad as he is nice and in time i might like him more, but i cant be doing with anyone right now.. i just like distractions without the complications.. you know msn.. texts.. but no when we meeting? just go with my own flow.. which is a little drip atm.. lol sounds bad i guess but thats where im at;) only kissed 3 guys and that was hard enough.. is there any hope for me? x Link to post Share on other sites
tealeafbud Posted July 23, 2008 Share Posted July 23, 2008 I think it makes it harder on couples that were also best friends to get over each other after breaking up with each other. I am sort of at that point. Even though I left my ex-fiance, we still maintained contact shortly after the fit hit the shan. We were best friends and although we couldn't be a couple, I think we missed knowing each other, knowing about each other, etc. It made it more difficult on me because she found a new love interest, but I'm slowly getting over it. It's hard to believe she might even marry this guy. Link to post Share on other sites
Recommended Posts