I know i messed up...

[Isis1808]

And so did he... But to get to the point, my ex contacted me and i replied when me and my bf agreed that we wouldnt communicate with the exes. I know i messed up and my bf found out and [understandably] upset, disappointed and cant get over it... I dont know what to do we're falling apart and its killing me. The way it looks at this point, we're going to be breaking up and i really dont want that. Im trying to be on my up and up and not do anything that will get him upset or bothered or anything, but since there are things that hes being doing thats getting me bothered and upset its becoming a bit hard. The other day he recieved a phone call and walked out the room to talk on the phone. I knew it was a female and it was someone he either hasnt spoken to in a long time or someone completely new, by the way he spoke and he was telling them where he lives now and the name and age of our son. Thats really bothered me b.c we had problems about that b4 and he said that he wont do that anymore, but when it came to talking with this person all that went out the window. Recently, we went to a wedding rehearsal and the bride's bff is one of his exes. He just kept eyeing her all night, which was bothering me but i didnt say anything b/c i didnt want to argue about that, since we had a small arguement about her kissing my son on the lips (who does that to an infant?). At one point i was telling him something (gossiping to my man.lol.) and i got close to him and he put his arm around me, not like a hug hug, but a hug. Then afterwards i wanted to give him a real hug and he rejected me, when i looked his ex was standing right in front of us. i dont know if thats the reason why he rejected me or if it was what he really said "it was an intimate hug and we were around elders and in a church". It wasnt an intimate hug that will lead to an erection or sex, it was a simple "i love you" hug, yet i was still rejected and given that excuse. We're trying to work on our relationship but yet he cant accept a hug from me. Why?????

 

This is my problem now, i dont know how to put everything aside and work on my relationship, this is going to be really hard b/c im losing trust in him and he in me. I really need objective advice beofre my relationaship ends..