Any thoughts?

[JustSo]

This is all gonna sound a bit stupid, but this is my story.

I've been with a girl for only a couple months, but it was the most intensive relationship I ever had.. We were together every time in those months and did everything together.. It was the best period of my life.. but then I went for 3 months away to the other side of the world, we still kept contact.. but apparently not enough.. Mostly we used msn messenger to communicate, and I asked some times if she still loved me..

And she was always saying yes, but in the beginning I felt that she had a really hard time.. Just 10 days before I came back home, we had a very long conversation about us, about the differences between us.. but she said she still wanted me and that the difference between us wasn't that big at all.. The day I got back.. everything changed.. I was suffering from jet-lag big time, I had to start looking for work.. and she said that she didn't feel the same about me anymore but still wanted to give it a try..

Just three days later all problems worsened, she called me over..to say that she didn't have enough feelings for me to carry on.. and that she had to focus on her exams..

I had a hard time in letting her go and I stopped calling her or going to the same places as her.. but we still kept contact through msn.. after 2 weeks of not seeing each other.. I went to a party where she was too..

And in that following week she came over to my place twice and we were laying in each other arms just like old times.. All this was very confused because she was giving mixed signals about her feelings for me..

The next week I couldn't stand it anymore, and asked what that was all about.. She was still saying she just wants to be friends and that there isn't anything more..

I try to ignore her since then but not always with success.

Now again some weeks later I can't stop thinking about how I can get her back.. but it feels like with everything I do I'm just pushing her away more and more..

My friends keep telling me that I should listen to what she says (just friends) and not what she does (hugs,..) and just let go... but I just can't.. I'm still hoping for more..

Every time I see her online on msn I'm getting nervous and dying to contact her.. I just want to hold her again..

Playing cool and ignoring her don't seem to work.. so I'm feeling like I'm running out of time.. Any help??