LeBleu Posted August 5, 2008 Share Posted August 5, 2008 I just registered to this site a minute ago so there will be plenty of time to get into the detail. For now I'd like to get a few things off my chest. Unfortunately, I do not have anyone to talk to. I just started yet another journal so that I can write a few things down to keep my mind busy. My wife is a cheater. She has always been a cheater. I've known this for a while now. She does not know my methods. She's blissfully unaware of what insight I have. I think I'm very clever. We've been married now for 5 years and apparently I'm not enough for her. To her, I'm not even worth her effort. That's ok. We can't be all things to all people. At first I was reading her journal, which got pretty deep. She has since been keeping that book at work so I no longer have access. Too bad. That book is my Holy Grail. There was a wealth of info there. I miss that damn journal. Now I rely on her personal e-mail account. It's not very revealing because I think most of her personal stuff takes place at work. Her job is where the guys are. Very recently I gained access to her work e-mail. I'm so excited about that. I hope that I don't become careless. I've already discovered some very revealing stuff. Years ago I found something in her journal that really freaked me out. I mustered up enough energy to confront her about it. She got very upset with me because I had the nerve to read her stuff. At that time she did not really hide it so it was not a big deal for me to read it. Years went by without her writing. I was in a complete and total intelligence blackout. It really sucked. Now she's at a different job and doing her thing again. I am now committed to gathering the information and I'll never confront her. It's just that I must know what's going on. I have to know. Link to post Share on other sites
whichwayisup Posted August 5, 2008 Share Posted August 5, 2008 Do you two have children together? What are you going to do about her cheating? Work on the marriage together or divorce? Two wrongs don't make a right. You not opening up and confronting her and her lying and hiding stuff from you isn't helping or doing anything positive. You both are unhappy. Link to post Share on other sites
Bryanp Posted August 5, 2008 Share Posted August 5, 2008 If you are so insightful and clever why in the world do you remain married to a woman who constantly cheats on you, puts your health at risk for STD's, humiliates and totally disrespects you as a man and a spouse? You wish to gather more information on her cheating but will not confront her on it? I think it says it all when you said you once mustered up some courage to call her on it and she turned it on you. You sound totally co-dependent on a woman who emotionally abuses you, puts your health at risk for STD's and plays you for a total fool and you call yourself clever? Your wife clearly has no respect for you. If you do not respect yourself then who will? Your post is so sad because not only does it say so much about your wife but it says even more about you and your total loss of self-respect. Link to post Share on other sites
Rooster_DAR Posted August 5, 2008 Share Posted August 5, 2008 I agree with BryanP, what the hell are you doing still with her? Boot her a$$ and get yourself back on track. Cheers! Link to post Share on other sites
orangesean Posted August 5, 2008 Share Posted August 5, 2008 Haha, this is mean, but I get the feeling the poster just likes sneaking around and finding information rather than the actual relationship. Maybe it's a hobby? I mean what advice is he asking for? He post just ended very abruptly. Link to post Share on other sites
nopainnogain Posted August 5, 2008 Share Posted August 5, 2008 this post cracks me up Link to post Share on other sites
lovestruck818 Posted August 5, 2008 Share Posted August 5, 2008 I just registered to this site a minute ago so there will be plenty of time to get into the detail. For now I'd like to get a few things off my chest. Unfortunately, I do not have anyone to talk to. I just started yet another journal so that I can write a few things down to keep my mind busy. My wife is a cheater. She has always been a cheater. I've known this for a while now. She does not know my methods. She's blissfully unaware of what insight I have. I think I'm very clever. We've been married now for 5 years and apparently I'm not enough for her. To her, I'm not even worth her effort. That's ok. We can't be all things to all people. At first I was reading her journal, which got pretty deep. She has since been keeping that book at work so I no longer have access. Too bad. That book is my Holy Grail. There was a wealth of info there. I miss that damn journal. Now I rely on her personal e-mail account. It's not very revealing because I think most of her personal stuff takes place at work. Her job is where the guys are. Very recently I gained access to her work e-mail. I'm so excited about that. I hope that I don't become careless. I've already discovered some very revealing stuff. Years ago I found something in her journal that really freaked me out. I mustered up enough energy to confront her about it. She got very upset with me because I had the nerve to read her stuff. At that time she did not really hide it so it was not a big deal for me to read it. Years went by without her writing. I was in a complete and total intelligence blackout. It really sucked. Now she's at a different job and doing her thing again. I am now committed to gathering the information and I'll never confront her. It's just that I must know what's going on. I have to know. just ask her instead of trying to snoop around to get it! Link to post Share on other sites
Author LeBleu Posted August 5, 2008 Author Share Posted August 5, 2008 Wow, I didn't expect to get a response so quickly. The response that I did get was very expected because when I step back and get reflexive I do look pathetic. That much I know and that's why it's easier for me to read a firm rebuke rather that face one personally. I don't like being the way I am, but I can't help it. I have some issues that could use some addressing, but I'm in no way a danger to myself or others. The post ended suddenly because I saw no other way to end it. Also, I was at work. Is this a game to me? No, not really. I've heard stories of being cheated on, but to sit on this side of this human drama is just surreal to me. By the way, I don't need your advice in any way. I don't seek your bravado. I'll never live in that "kick her butt to the proverbial curb" world that you brave people live in. I have no "track" to get back on. You are right, she has no respect for me. That fact was clear to me years ago, but I stayed. Yes, I'm a fool. There's no other way to put it. I posted because I feel unable to make a connection in person; therefore, I don't have that go-to person that I can talk to. I had to get it off my chest for the first time. Thanks for the virtual shoulder. Link to post Share on other sites
rproctor Posted August 5, 2008 Share Posted August 5, 2008 You know what, I bet your wife does not respect you because you dont respect yourself, had you respected yourself, your wife would not have gotten this far down the rabbit hole. If I were you, which I am not, I would leave. But your not in it to leave, rather you in it because you cant leave by your own self. What will happen when one of these affairs turns into a relationship and then your kicked to the curb? Would you be contempt with that? If you dont want to end this, and you dont want to confront her, why dont you have an affair as well. Maybe it will give you enough gusto to flee this shamble of a relationship you call a marriage. And your right, you are a fool. It probably hurts you to look in the mirror and probably destroys you to look at your wife. You only have one life man, youd be a fool to waste it with this slut. Peace Link to post Share on other sites
Untouchable_Fire Posted August 7, 2008 Share Posted August 7, 2008 Wow, I didn't expect to get a response so quickly. The response that I did get was very expected because when I step back and get reflexive I do look pathetic. That much I know and that's why it's easier for me to read a firm rebuke rather that face one personally. I don't like being the way I am, but I can't help it. I have some issues that could use some addressing, but I'm in no way a danger to myself or others. Yikes. This is sad stuff. Listen. You say that you lack the power to leave her. Why? Do you think she is the best you can do? Are you afraid to be alone? You put up with this out of fear. What is the fear that drives you? Link to post Share on other sites
twice_shy Posted August 8, 2008 Share Posted August 8, 2008 LeBleu, Only one question. When are you going to divorce this tramp? Link to post Share on other sites
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