A bit moody and suicidal

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I've been having severe mood swings lately. I've been cranky and I get annoyed easily. I've also been really depressed and sometimes I would just lay in bed and not want to do anything at all. My medical history isn't all that good either. I've been on and off prozac the last 2 years, and my therapist thinks that I should take my drugs continously if I want to get better. But I don't know how to keep taking my medication consistently. My friends and family are worried because I've been real distant with them. I've refused to open up to my parents about what's been going on and I've ignored all my friends' phone calls.

 

What's been bothering me is that, I don't know how long I can take feeling like this. Before, I used to cope by cutting myself, and I was admitted into the hospital 2 times for attempted suicide. I haven't cut myself for a while now, but lately I've been getting the urges to cut. Yet, I know that if I start cutting myself again, I might end up in the hospital again. I don't know what to do.

[Art_Critic]

I'm sorry that you are feeling moody and under the weather..

There isn't much I can say that will help but I just wanted you to know that you're not alone tonight...

 

*** hugz ***

 

Keep on posting...

[SnapCracklePop]

What's been bothering me is that, I don't know how long I can take feeling like this.

 

So what are you feeling exactly? What is missing?

[Ssheena]

I understand how you feel. I'm having to accept the fact that I do have to stay on medication all the time or I will go into deep depression, like it sounds like you are. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to do anything, I am apathetic about everything, I don't think anything will get better, etc., etc. I had stopped prozac at the beginning of the year and now I'm back on a new drug which isn't helping yet so I'm relying on ativan to get me through the days. Kind of like a zombie. I would be perfectly happy just staying in a dark room all day but I can't - work/dogs etc..

 

 

Are you on prozac now?

[Cherry Blossom 35]

I was on Zoloft for 5 years. Very high dosage. i took it religiously because it made me be able to function, and it lessened the severe mood swings. Listen to your doc, and if you think you are note being helped, find a new one. Also, is the doc a psychiatrist? A GP is not enough, you need someone who is skilled in mental health care-giving. Are you seeing a therapist? Meds are not enough.

 

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Ride out the wave...you will come back to the beach soon.

 

I have accepted that depression and anxiety are part of my make-up, and that I may need to go on meds again. It's not the end of the world. Imagine if there were no meds. We would all be locked up in the psych ward. That would suck! Now go take your medicine, put a good movie in, make yourself a cup of tea, and take care of yourself. Is it nice out where you are? Go for a walk. Fresh air, exercise, now that's a mood lifter.

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I'm sorry that you are feeling moody and under the weather..

There isn't much I can say that will help but I just wanted you to know that you're not alone tonight...

 

*** hugz ***

 

Keep on posting...

 

Thanks Art, I'm glad that i always have LS to go to for support.

 

So what are you feeling exactly? What is missing?

 

I don't know Snap, lately just being feeling really empty.

 

I was on Zoloft for 5 years. Very high dosage. i took it religiously because it made me be able to function, and it lessened the severe mood swings. Listen to your doc, and if you think you are note being helped, find a new one. Also, is the doc a psychiatrist? A GP is not enough, you need someone who is skilled in mental health care-giving. Are you seeing a therapist? Meds are not enough.

 

I'm sorry you are feeling this way. Ride out the wave...you will come back to the beach soon.

 

I have accepted that depression and anxiety are part of my make-up, and that I may need to go on meds again. It's not the end of the world. Imagine if there were no meds. We would all be locked up in the psych ward. That would suck! Now go take your medicine, put a good movie in, make yourself a cup of tea, and take care of yourself. Is it nice out where you are? Go for a walk. Fresh air, exercise, now that's a mood lifter.

 

Yeah I know. I just took up prozac again, but I know I need to take it consistently to stabilize my moods. What bothered me was I had thoughts of overdosing on them, and I've never felt like that before.

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I understand how you feel. I'm having to accept the fact that I do have to stay on medication all the time or I will go into deep depression, like it sounds like you are. I don't want to talk to anyone, I don't want to do anything, I am apathetic about everything, I don't think anything will get better, etc., etc. I had stopped prozac at the beginning of the year and now I'm back on a new drug which isn't helping yet so I'm relying on ativan to get me through the days. Kind of like a zombie. I would be perfectly happy just staying in a dark room all day but I can't - work/dogs etc..

 

 

Are you on prozac now?

 

I've been off of them for the last month or so, but I just started taking them again today. I really can't seem to take my medication consistently, I feel like whether I take them or not, I still feel the same. I don't have alot of sideeffects from it ( which I'm glad), but the only reason that I was prescribe prozac in the first place was for my eating disorder. My pysch

prescribed me abilify but I'm apprehensive about taking it.

[Ariadne]

I really believe you are better off not taking any of that stuff and staying away from Psychologists/Psychiatrists and leading a normal life for a young girl like you, eating well and exercising.

 

I believe Prozac and all those medications to be the poison of today's society.

 

But then I know many people swear by that stuff.

 

Hope you are feeling better today papercut.

[Cherry Blossom 35]

I really believe you are better off not taking any of that stuff and staying away from Psychologists/Psychiatrists and leading a normal life for a young girl like you, eating well and exercising.

 

I believe Prozac and all those medications to be the poison of today's society.

 

But then I know many people swear by that stuff.

 

Hope you are feeling better today papercut.

 

I do swear by the stuff. I couldn't do anything the normal girls could do until my moods were stabilized. That being said, it is just one piece of the puzzle and the OP should not rely on meds and meds alone.

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I really believe you are better off not taking any of that stuff and staying away from Psychologists/Psychiatrists and leading a normal life for a young girl like you, eating well and exercising.

 

I believe Prozac and all those medications to be the poison of today's society.

 

But then I know many people swear by that stuff.

 

Hope you are feeling better today papercut.

 

That's how I feel sometimes. I really think the medication are doing more damage than good. I've never had this problem where I get severe mood swings until I started taking them.

 

I do swear by the stuff. I couldn't do anything the normal girls could do until my moods were stabilized. That being said, it is just one piece of the puzzle and the OP should not rely on meds and meds alone.

 

I'm not relying just on meds. I have therapy once a week but I think my therapist is bias because she can't be more accepting towards certain actions that I've been known to take. And it's really hard to place any trust or faith in her when the only solution she has for me is medication.

[Ariadne]

That's how I feel sometimes. I really think the medication are doing more damage than good. I've never had this problem where I get severe mood swings until I started taking them.

 

Well, you are still very young, almost a teenager. People that age are supposed to have mood swings, is natural.

 

Plus, you are dating and all that stuff makes anyone have mood swings.

 

I agree with you about the medications doing more damage than good. Also, I've read about a high incidence of Prozac and suicide. Be careful.

[Cherry Blossom 35]

That's how I feel sometimes. I really think the medication are doing more damage than good. I've never had this problem where I get severe mood swings until I started taking them.

 

 

 

I'm not relying just on meds. I have therapy once a week but I think my therapist is bias because she can't be more accepting towards certain actions that I've been known to take. And it's really hard to place any trust or faith in her when the only solution she has for me is medication.

 

 

If you feel this way, you should get a new therapist who has a different philosophy towards medication. It is very important to be able to trust your therapist and feel comfortable with them.

[Ariadne]

(Btw, I just looked it up. You "are" a teenager, you are 18, the age of my son...)

[Cherry Blossom 35]

Also, there can be physical withdrawal symptoms when you abruptly stop taking Prozac. You need to ween off it.

[Lishy]

Well, you are still very young, almost a teenager. People that age are supposed to have mood swings, is natural.

 

Plus, you are dating and all that stuff makes anyone have mood swings.

 

I agree with you about the medications doing more damage than good. Also, I've read about a high incidence of Prozac and suicide. Be careful.

 

Ariadne, this thread is far too serious for you to give mis-informed information about something that you obviously know nothing about!

 

XP - What have you been diagnosed with?

 

You MUST take your meds every day, that is why you are having mood swings so badly. It is not normal (as Ariadne says) for young girls to feel how you do i.e cutting/suicide and you really need to get to the best psychiatrist you can.

 

If you feel suicidal urges please call an ambulance so that they can take you somewhere safe until that feeling passes.

 

I am so so sorry you are going through this, it must be terrible for you BUT you can come through the other side of this. You have to help yourself as no one else will be able to.

 

You can do this but please take your meds, they take a while to get in the system and you have to take them constantly to feel the difference and if you just stop taking them you will hit the floor as you need to be weaned off slowly

[Totoro]

Papercuts, why do you have trouble taking your meds?

 

Is it just that you forget?

Put an alarm on your cell phone--that should help.

 

To echo what others have said, you MUST take meds every day as prescribed. If you are having side effects, tell your doctor. And again, you should be seeing an actualy psychiatrist.

 

You can always switch meds--there are many other antidepressants out there.

Prozac didn't work for me so I weaned off it and now I am on another SSRI which helps a lot.

 

Antidepressants are NOT like Advil or Tylenol--you don't just take a few pills and then stop if you feel better. If you don't take them everyday, you can have serious side effects.

 

 

You might want to try healthboards.com--they have a good depression/anxiety forum..

 

Good luck!

[Cherry Blossom 35]

It can take 3-4 weeks for the medication to start taking effect.

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If you feel this way, you should get a new therapist who has a different philosophy towards medication. It is very important to be able to trust your therapist and feel comfortable with them.

i switched 3 therapists in the past year.

 

(Btw, I just looked it up. You "are" a teenager, you are 18, the age of my son...)

Yeah but I like to think of myself as an adult.

 

Did your son ever have to deal with anything like this?

 

Ariadne, this thread is far too serious for you to give mis-informed information about something that you obviously know nothing about!

 

XP - What have you been diagnosed with?

 

You MUST take your meds every day, that is why you are having mood swings so badly. It is not normal (as Ariadne says) for young girls to feel how you do i.e cutting/suicide and you really need to get to the best psychiatrist you can.

 

If you feel suicidal urges please call an ambulance so that they can take you somewhere safe until that feeling passes.

 

I am so so sorry you are going through this, it must be terrible for you BUT you can come through the other side of this. You have to help yourself as no one else will be able to.

 

You can do this but please take your meds, they take a while to get in the system and you have to take them constantly to feel the difference and if you just stop taking them you will hit the floor as you need to be weaned off slowly

 

Lishy, I've been suffering from an ED for the last 4 years and when I was hospitalized they diagnosed me with bulimia/anorexia and clinical depression. My weight at that time had dropped to a 95 pounds and they had to keep to me under suicidal watch because I had cut myself.

 

 

 

Papercuts, why do you have trouble taking your meds?

 

Is it just that you forget?

Put an alarm on your cell phone--that should help.

 

To echo what others have said, you MUST take meds every day as prescribed. If you are having side effects, tell your doctor. And again, you should be seeing an actualy psychiatrist.

 

You can always switch meds--there are many other antidepressants out there.

Prozac didn't work for me so I weaned off it and now I am on another SSRI which helps a lot.

 

Antidepressants are NOT like Advil or Tylenol--you don't just take a few pills and then stop if you feel better. If you don't take them everyday, you can have serious side effects.

 

 

You might want to try healthboards.com--they have a good depression/anxiety forum..

 

Good luck!

 

Thanks for the site. It's not that I forget to take the meds but because I don't know how to start taking it again since i've been off of it for so long. I know they're not like over the counter drugs, but sometimes I don't know see the point in taking them because I just don't see any effects.

I do want to switch meds, but prozac had helped in controlling my bulimia, yet I'm afraid of taking other replacements because of the side effects.

[Ariadne]

Did your son ever have to deal with anything like this?

 

Not really, my son is the most balanced.

 

He is never sad, never depressed, always cheerful. Dunno.

 

His gf gets depressed sometimes with pressure from school etc and he pep talks her instead.

 

(I just put their pic in the profile).

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Not really, my son is the most balanced.

 

He is never sad, never depressed, always cheerful. Dunno.

 

His gf gets depressed sometimes with pressure from school etc and he pep talks her instead.

 

(I just put their pic in the profile).

 

Wow, they're such a cute couple

[Ariadne]

Wow, they're such a cute couple

 

Thanks. They've been together for three years.

 

They get along really well, never fight, no dramas etc. So that helps I suppose to have his mood more stable and not be dealing with dating and crushes.

[Lovelybird]

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I was suicidal long long before, when depression hit you, you cannot think right, I remembered that vast darkness around me, I totally lost hope, and accused myself, and persecuted myself, such a big hatred toward self. But thank God, I listened some positive CDs and tv preaching each day, and within several days, I came out from suicidal mood, and things begin to appear whole new meaning to me, and I began to change. I learned how to cooperate with God, learned to let God changes me, learned that I am so much loved by Him.

 

There are several reasons for depression

 

1) lack of hope. when a person see hope to change things for better, they don't see how to carry on, they don't have anything to expect, so they want to finish the pain. But that isn't true. Hope (God) is waiting for us, if we reach out, the darkness soon can be dispelled. God can change us.

 

2) Wrong concepts in our mind.

see, we all know in this world there are too much garbage for our thought. Our mind is like a container, if a person put too much garbages in there, this person will have a shabby life. For example:

 

* a girl believe that only sex can get love. if she believes that, then she will be easily depressed, because God didn't make us this way, and this belief is a lie, a lie that destroy.

Right concept: everyone is made by God. she deserves love because God loves her, not because her perfermance, her good looking, simplely God is love, He made her for spcial purpose. A child of God can get any amount of love she wants, she expects favors all the time

 

* a girl believes that she isn't good enough. if she believes that, then she will seek some self-destructive behaviours, she maybe seek those people who don't really care about her.

 

* a girl believes that only good outer appearance will get love. If she believes that, she will be frustrated often, focus on her negative points rather than appreciate herself. that can drive a girl crazy

 

* a girl has wrong concept about relationship, then she will not get a good one. Her belief direct her action

 

Can you see the garbages in our mind cause how much harm and pain?

BUT if we clease those garbages out of our mind, and replace them with good stuff, then this person can lead a happy success life. so I think those good christian preaching materials are precious, they are Holy Spirit inspired, tell truth, tell thoughts of God, and how we suppose to do to have a good life

 

3) we do things that are far from God's will. This will cause depression too. For example: God wants us to forgive, then if we don't, we bring depression to ourselves. God wants us to respect our parents, then if we don't, we bring depression to ourselves. God wants us to be humble, if we are so pride, then we bring depression to ourselves. But if we don't know what God requires of us, then we don't know how to do things according to God's will. Learn God's words first.

 

Change starts from our mind, our Spirit. Blessed are those who are hunger. I think you are hunger right now, only when a cup is empty, then God can fill it with good, hope, passion

 

My change started from I wholeheartly invited Jesus Lord come into my life, and I listen to Him, obey Him, now I am very happy person. If you want , you can do this too. then you will be surprised how much God cares about you all along, let God, let Jesus Lord and Holy Spirit bring you love, comform and change

[shanny]

Did you read my post from about a week and a half ago? I made a very serious suicide attempt by taking a ton of pills... My boyfriend called 911 though and I got my stomach pumped and spent some time in the hospital.

 

Since then... I have appreciated life a lot more. I'm not saying that everything is dandy... I'm starting therapy next week and was given additional meds (I'm now on an antideppresent, antipsychotic and mood stabilizer). Things are getting better though and I'm glad that my attempt didn't work. I have Borderline Personality Disorder and you seem similar. I have cut myself many times over the years as well.

 

Now I don't mean to go on about myself but I want you to know there is hope. Unfortunetly it took me a stay in the psych ward to realize it and I don't want you to do the same thing. I don't know why I was given this disorder and it seems really unfair... but realize that it is a chemical imbalance... don't let people convince you that you are "crazy". It's just the cards we are dealt.

 

I don't know what else to say but think of the consequences of suicide. If your attempt doesn't work you will end up in the hospital, your family and friends won't trust you to be alone... so many things.

 

Just hang in there and PM me if you'd like.

[carhill]

Hey, Shanny, glad to read you're feeling better. It's a process, and yes, you truly are a chemical factory. There are just some things which are impossible to willfully control. One day at a time.