i need assistance :(

[reko]

I know they say thinking negatively is bad but I cant help it, my life sucks. First it started off with my dad abusing me from when i was born to just about two years ago, then my mother died when i was 9 and my brother loved to pitch in with the abuse giving me bloody noses randomly, calling me a fagot, and various other names, just making me feel like complete garbage and he still does at the age of 22. I thought everything was going to be finished two years ago when i first did something about what was going on. My father locked me outside one day after slamming me against the kitchen walls and i just ran as fast as i could to my friends house. From then on in the state got involved and basically just told me to go **** off and i was a liar and at times i think they sided with my abusive father. I ended up moving in with my grandmother and unfortunately my brother was living with her as well, and he was still like he was when i was growing up. He would constantly tell me what i went through was nothing compared to what he went through, completely putting me down and making me feel like garbage. One day he attacked me for interrupting him when he was talking to my grandmother even though he always did that to me, when i took out my cellphone to call the police and he broke it. Recently he did the same thing and i successfully called the police, hes not arrested yet so im living with my father again and hes obviously up to his same stuff again. I dont know what to do, im depressed, stressed out, lonely and i dont even have a safe ****ing place to live. I'm 16 years old and everybody keeps teling me only 2 more years but i dont think my mind can last that long. Please help.

[Kenyth]

I'm so sorry. Talk to school counselors. They can sometimes help in these situations. Try and get involved with a church youth group. The church members will usually come and pick you up for services and activities. They will also help get you out of the house and possibly help with the situation as well. A good group like this can help you feel loved and give your self confidence a boost. Your brother is a fine example of what happens to abused kids. They become abusers themselves. You will need counseling yourself in the future if you want to avoid becoming like them.

 

If you don't already have college plans, I would suggest joining the service. For someone in your position, it could help immensely. You could leave, and never come back. The service offers a good structured environment, training, %100 medical benefits, free counseling, and generous school benefits. For a young single man with nowhere to go, it's a fine start in life.