ccodster Posted September 7, 2008 Share Posted September 7, 2008 [FONT=verdana, arial, helvetica][sIZE=2]Hello all, Ever since January 2008, I met a young lady from another country through a social networking site. It was not until March when we truly began to chat on an almost daily basis. I am 22, she just turned 22. I was in a military academy, online almost all day, i appreciated the company as well as the good chats. She soon began to fall for me and openly confessed her love for me. Unfortunately, I only saw her as a friend, a very special friend. At the end of April I was diagnosed with leukemia (AML) and by May i had already graduated from the academy and been enrolled at a local hospital for chemotherapy. During all this time, my friend was always there for me to offer me uplifting chats; she even introduced me to her 5 best friends. At the hospital, from where I am writing now, and with nothing else to do, i began to spend most of my days online, playing games and chatting. I became good friends with her friends, to the point that with at least 2 of them, and my original friend, we engaged in daily chats lasting hours. My friend whom had fallen in love with me began getting a little too obsessed and crazy for me, but knowing how i felt, i couldnt let her suffer and continue investing in something that wasn't reciprocal. As the days passed I became aware of my interest in one of her friends. Her and I seemed to be able to talk about anything, and anything meaning deep philosophical conversations, which contrasted with the more superficial daily chats I had with our now mutual friend. Today, I am still in the hospital undergoing treatment. My original friend is still in love with me, though I am aware of that through her friends who tell me, but since the very beginning they knew how i felt about her, how i saw her as just a friend. I now spend hours talking to this new interest of mine. I wish I could say that this was just a crazy illusion i had from having been baffled by a pretty face, but I would be lying. Though she is very pretty, my connection with her tends to be on a more intellectual and spiritual level. She doesn't know how I feel about her, and together with the rest of the gang, she usually teases me by telling me that i have fallen for one of their other friends. Don't think that i spend all day saying sweet things to all of them to see who falls first, because they have even described me as cold, but i need to know what to do. I dont know if i should let her know and run the risk of being like her friend, who loves me but can't have me, or even putting her in the position where she either feels sorry for me for my leukemia or doesn't want anything just because she doesn't want to hurt her friend. I've talked with the friend that has fallen for me and she knows how i feel about her, so i would think that even though it may be a shock to her, she will understand about my feelings for her friend.. Any advice will be greatly appreciated..[/sIZE][/FONT] Link to post Share on other sites
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