shayna Posted September 26, 2008 Share Posted September 26, 2008 Sigh. So its finally true. My ex (after a 9 year relationship) is in fact with a girl who I share a good friend with. I was at a mandatory meeting until late tonight (midnight) at a home which unfortunately is on her street (kill me now). I would have gone another direction if I could have. It was almost as if some sick fate needed me to see his car parked outside her place. I wasn't even intentionally looking but saw it out of the corner of my eye. And after he told me nothing was going to happen with her only a few days ago. What a liar!!!! I'm so incredibily stupid to have fallen for that one- I guess it was more hope than belief actually. Its been 15 months so why does this hurt so much!!! I wish I could just move away but I cannot thanks to medical school - and transferring schools is impossible. I called one friend to cry tonight and have been trying so hard to keep from sending him an email telling him "ha- you've been caught you $%#^@ liar". Luckily, I know that's not going to be helpful in the grand scheme of things but that one moment of catching him in a lie and knowing about it would feel soooooo good for a whole 2 minutes!!!! I don't know what more I can do to move on. I wish I never wasted those 9 years on him. And yes, they weren't that great because he pretty much knew from the start that he wouldn't marry me- so I do see him as having wasted my time all these years... Link to post Share on other sites
Author shayna Posted September 26, 2008 Author Share Posted September 26, 2008 Why can't I be happy for them? Why can't I feel relief that the dreaded wait for the dreaded inevitable is finally over? I wish there were words or advice somewhere that would just make me finally say "OK you are done and you don't care anymore" and actually believe and act as though I really am done and don't care. I search the net looking for something I haven't heard or read yet in hopes of a light finally turning on- but sadly nothing appears and I remain in this hell. Link to post Share on other sites
Crazy.S Posted September 26, 2008 Share Posted September 26, 2008 I know how it feels. Think of it this way, you already wasted 9 years of your life to this guy. So why waste anymore time on him? I know you loved him but emotions aside, he's not the one for you. Move on and enjoy your life. Good luck Link to post Share on other sites
RecordProducer Posted September 26, 2008 Share Posted September 26, 2008 I wish there were words or advice somewhere that would just make me finally say "OK you are done and you don't care anymore" and actually believe and act as though I really am done and don't care. I have to ask/tell you some things: 1. What is he doing in life? 2. You spent 9 years with this guy. If he were marriage material or you were with someone who wanted to commit, you would have been married with kids right now (or in a few years) and your med school would've possibly never happened or you wouldn't have had the time and energy to pursue it the way you pursue it now. 3. What business do you have talking with him about his love life 15 months after you broke up, and you know you're still emotional about him? Stop communicating with him. A few more months and you'll be over him. Link to post Share on other sites
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