Don"t Care About Nothing.....

[longlegzs80]

I am such a mess. I don't know what is wrong with me other then depression and anger but I don't care about anything. I don't care about family, I don't care about myself or my life. It is such a mess that I need to take care of. What's to do though? Sure everyone can say I need to talk to someone but I really don't think that is going to help me out. I have done that before when I was up at school where I talked to someone. But I feel like no one cares about me so why should I care about them. I find myself always irritated, depressed and lonely. I know it is not easy to deal with but I don't have the money to talk to a professional conselor. And really have no one to talk to that I feel close with. My mother and I don't have a good relationship, I barely talk to her, and I have not seen my father or heard from him for over 18 years, my overall family well, my mothers side of the family is not close at all. So, what's to do? I am really lost in the sauce about this, and wondering why I am feeling irritated, anger towards everyone. I have always felt like no one has ever cared for me, and I see it as being the truth. If anyone can help me out I would greatly appreciate it. Thanks. ----SARAH

[yes]

i'd say you DO need professional help, and here're some ways to get it free:

- go to a psychietrist (ask your regular doc for a referral)

- go to a social worker type counselor - there're plenty of these in every city, and it's free. may not be as good as a well-paid one, but it's a start

- go to a priest, if you're religious

- volunteer your time in a nursing home - these old people know a lot about life, so you'd be doing a good thing and getting a chance to talk to them

 

that's all i can think of right now... good luck! don't worry, it does get better - i've been very down/lonely/depressed myself, and it's gotten better every time...

 

-yes