Your thoughts on the latest?

[audrey_1]

I haven't posted on my recent experience in a while:

 

Here's some back story:

 

http://www.loveshack.org/forums/showthread.php?t=161941&page=2

 

 

http://www.loveshack.org/forums/t145580/

 

 

When he came to see me last, and it was revealed that he had been on two dates with someone else, I couldn't be angry about it, since we're not exclusive, but it cut me really deep. I've been wondering if my self-preservation due to distance and not wanting to be hurt by him hasn't ruined any chances of being with him at all, even after I move. I will be back in the same state as him next month. And he mentioned to me that he wants to help me move.

 

 

I'm not sure where he is with this other woman he's dating, but knowing that made me step up a little bit, and I sent him an email telling him that I loved him, which is something I just realized one day recently while sitting at work. He did not say it back, or even respond to that email. I didn't hear from him for a couple of days, then got a text message from him saying to relax, that I was still one of his favorite people.

 

 

I've just been going about my life, exercising, doing my job, the usual, and trying very hard not to let him occupy my thoughts, but he's in my heart. I have noticed that our correspondence to and from each other isn't as urgent as it once was. Where it was once immediate, now there can be delay before we respond to the other.

 

 

He called me this past Tuesday, and we talked for over an hour. He hasn't called me in a while. It was good to hear his voice, and laugh and catch up on things that are going on. We didn't talk about whether he is still seeing this woman. I didn't ask. At the time I found out, they had been on two dates. When I decided to move, I stopped dating locally, as I didn't really see the point, and I needed to focus on tying up loose ends before the move.

 

 

Because he can be socially awkward, and because I have intentionally kept emotional distance, do you think I clipped the wings of this (potential) relationship for good? When we had our talk, he said he thought about if we did enter into a relationship, whether I would bail on him.

 

 

It probably could and should have been so simple, but I think we effed it all up with our insecurities and commitment issues.