Diddy6888 Posted October 12, 2008 Share Posted October 12, 2008 The last time i had a terribly strong crush on someone was ten years ago. I was about 17. Two weeks ago i went to a certain shop with my ex boyfriend who wanted us to have a talk and see if we can mend fences. Out of curiosity i entered a shop (Books) and my eyes fell on a tall young man. I went around looking at the books. The young man approached me and i felt a wave of weakness. MY ex and i walked out of the shop but i felt like i was leaving a part of me behind. I looked back and felt sad. I could feel he was somewhat drawn to me too. The week that followed i was dying to go back to that shop which is a while away from my area. maybe twenty five minutes drive. Then a week later my Ex said we could go back to the same place to talk again. I was overjoyed at the possiblity of looking at the young man again. I was very sure i wanted to enter that shop again. Indeed i enetered the shop and again i felt the young man drawn to me just like i felt. I felt as though he wanted to say smething but could not because i was with a man. I found many excuses to make my ex leave us in the shop alone to point where my fool thought i was making a fool of myself. My ex noticed i was crushing on this guy and asked that we leave. Luckily the Young man in the shop had noted down my number becaise i was supposed to go back and get my change and pick my intended gift from the shop.We had a row over it with my ex. Next day The young man called me and we hooked up that evening but just stayed in the car when i reached home. We kissed and he left. I felt attracted to him. Following day he came by to my house and we had tea and kissed though not tongue-ing. Third day he wanted to come home but i had a male visitor (work colleague) and he said he would eb uncomfortable but he said things on phone that night that made me think he might be jealous that i had a male vsitor in my house in the night. He talked about it casually when we met the following day. That night, we kissed and he asked to reach my bedroom. I agreed but refused to have sex and strong romancing. I allowwed us a few rubs and light kisses. He wnated to have sex but i told him i was not ready and i feared sex would complicate things such as creating attachments. I dont know him really. He just returned a few months ago from over seas and am not sure whether he has a girlfriend or not. I thought it was too early to ask on meeting the third time.However he got upset when i refused to have sex because he never sent a goodbye phone messeage and neither did he reply my three texts the yesterday. He only responded late in the night saying he was sorry about the silence but was thinking his silence would help me get over my crush and any likely attachment. Is he the type that just wanted us to be friends with benefits. well actually he casually mentioned that phrase the second night we met. Now he is not comunicative and i believe our smal thing could be over. I deleted his number and can therefore not contact him because i dont know it but i can raech him if i went to his shop. He is 27 and i am 28 but his behavior made me think he was perhaps 32 or 31. He seems mature and was such a gentleman, he pulled chairs for me the first time we met at a pub, and poured my drink and pulled my chair again. A month before this, i had had a dream that i had entered a new phase after meeting a tall light skinned handsome man who had just returned home from overseasa nd we had a relationship. This stranger on the shop gits the bill. He is tall, light, handsome and just returned froma broad. Many times some of my dreams come true or have meaning. I am trying to get him out of my head. But what happens if he was something. We seemed to strike a good converstaion from the start. I guess maybe because i was upfront and told him i had crushed on him. Should i forget him. Was he just intesrested in sex? will he get in touch again. sorry its prety long but thats my recent life story Link to post Share on other sites
norajane Posted October 12, 2008 Share Posted October 12, 2008 He only responded late in the night saying he was sorry about the silence but was thinking his silence would help me get over my crush and any likely attachment. He seems pretty clear about not wanting a relationship. Forget about him. Link to post Share on other sites
Vixen763 Posted October 12, 2008 Share Posted October 12, 2008 seems like a pretty difficult stuation for you because i can sense you have a strong liking for him. Try to ignore thinking about him for long. You would have felt worse had you slept with him and he never called again! Link to post Share on other sites
CommitmentPhobe Posted October 13, 2008 Share Posted October 13, 2008 aw you got it bad poor you Link to post Share on other sites
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